RANDOM CRYING
I have been randomly crying for like a week now. Tonight I got really sad and started crying ALOT.
Why? Because of this FREAKING SEASON!!!!!
This season just makes me want to DIE. PLUS I am alone in the whole lover department. I mean what makes it worse than years past is that I had someone and now im alone.
So I started crying hardcore. Plus I had to take a picture so I could give to my family to shut them up. Brandon wouldnt take the picture until i put makeup on and did something with my hair which made me sad. I mean we joke a lot about each other but I so didnt need that.
And yes I know only a loser cries because a HUGE loser (aka my ex boyfriend) calls them fat and or ugly. I realize this. But its been a horrible day and I was sad and it popped into my brain and i went all crazy.
And Brandon litereally asked me what was wrong (after trying a million times to cheer me up).
I have never (aside from the Awesomes and Jackie) had a friend TRULY interested and concenered because i was upset. I mean I even told him i was being stupid and he was like whats wrong. I know this may seem small and everything but...it was significant to me.
It's weird i never bawl like that infront of people but ive been doing it in front of Brandon/Robert a lot and he has been - my best friend through all of it.
Anyways I dont know how this entry turned into a revelation about how much Brandon/Robert and I have grown in the last three years as friends.
It really is about how I am perfectly fine the way I am and will find someone one day who appreciates the great, witty, beautiful person I am.
Good lord could that someday be soon?
P.S. Becky you are still my soulmate.
Why? Because of this FREAKING SEASON!!!!!
This season just makes me want to DIE. PLUS I am alone in the whole lover department. I mean what makes it worse than years past is that I had someone and now im alone.
So I started crying hardcore. Plus I had to take a picture so I could give to my family to shut them up. Brandon wouldnt take the picture until i put makeup on and did something with my hair which made me sad. I mean we joke a lot about each other but I so didnt need that.
And yes I know only a loser cries because a HUGE loser (aka my ex boyfriend) calls them fat and or ugly. I realize this. But its been a horrible day and I was sad and it popped into my brain and i went all crazy.
And Brandon litereally asked me what was wrong (after trying a million times to cheer me up).
I have never (aside from the Awesomes and Jackie) had a friend TRULY interested and concenered because i was upset. I mean I even told him i was being stupid and he was like whats wrong. I know this may seem small and everything but...it was significant to me.
It's weird i never bawl like that infront of people but ive been doing it in front of Brandon/Robert a lot and he has been - my best friend through all of it.
Anyways I dont know how this entry turned into a revelation about how much Brandon/Robert and I have grown in the last three years as friends.
It really is about how I am perfectly fine the way I am and will find someone one day who appreciates the great, witty, beautiful person I am.
Good lord could that someday be soon?
P.S. Becky you are still my soulmate.