I can't face another night, so I just take another breath and close my eyes
Working away my life. Thats what the summer is going to be for me. At least it will keep me busy. Being at work is funny. lots of entertainment there. hehehe
I feel weird. Like I'm watching myself instead of actually living...I don't know how to explain it. Like those movies when the person's soul floats up in the air and they can see themselves below....thats it. I'm detached. I'm trying to get a good solid hold on my emotions but doing that effectively is ridding me of most feelings. both good and bad for different reasons. I have outbursts of emotion sometimes and it embarresses me, usually it happens when I'm alone so thats ok. if it happens when i'm around people i have to run away for a couple minutes and compose myself.
I think I'm gonna get tired of living at home real quick like.....I love them and all, just I don't like to impose on them. hmm.... this is the conundrum that is my life. i dont think i spelled conundrum right....oh well. i can't really spell much of anything. hahaha
I feel weird. Like I'm watching myself instead of actually living...I don't know how to explain it. Like those movies when the person's soul floats up in the air and they can see themselves below....thats it. I'm detached. I'm trying to get a good solid hold on my emotions but doing that effectively is ridding me of most feelings. both good and bad for different reasons. I have outbursts of emotion sometimes and it embarresses me, usually it happens when I'm alone so thats ok. if it happens when i'm around people i have to run away for a couple minutes and compose myself.
I think I'm gonna get tired of living at home real quick like.....I love them and all, just I don't like to impose on them. hmm.... this is the conundrum that is my life. i dont think i spelled conundrum right....oh well. i can't really spell much of anything. hahaha