Oh boy.
Okay, I already calmed down about this but I am still kind of weirded out I suppose but apparently Tyler decided that he's straight.
He says him liking guys was just a phase apparently. A long phase.
IDFK. *groans* I love Tyler no matter what, obviously but now that he likes girls UST is present again. My feelings for him are still platonic. I think that if he ever showed intrest in liking me as more than just friends I'd give us a chance but I am not expecting/hoping for anything and I never have been.
BUT IT IS WEIRD NOW. Not awkward weird. Just...weird weird.
Yesterday was my last day at the Carmike here. It was really bittersweet. :( But today I figured I needed to get a lot of stuff done before the big move on Friday. Adam came and got me around 11 and then we went to snatch Kira. Kira and I had to turn in our choir dresses. I had to pay a few fines, I had one for the library and I owed Mr.Russell money for lost music (oops). Tyler woke me up in time for all of this by calling me at 8 in the morning on his way to TJC. Even if he has a new job, he is still tight on money so he was basically asking if I'd be able to loan him some cash for him to get home. I told him don't hesitate if he needs anything from me, I don't always have a lot of cash on hand but I will help him out best I can everytime he needs help.
Kira and Tyler got their Christmas presents today! We got up to the school, I turned in my dress and gave Mr. Russell a huge hug and he wished me good luck. Then Tyler got ahold of me and we decided to meet at the library so I could pay my fine. You know, I wait weeks and weeks and weeks for a freaking Teddy Bear hug and damn was it anticlimatic. But I loved it anyway though. :) We went into the library and caught up with Steph. While I paid the fine, Tyler opened his present behind me and I had to keep from laughing myself at his fanboy reaction. lmao. He gave me another Teddy Bear hug then.
We went back to Wise with Steph and I saw Taylor, Logan, Britney and Maria! Tay saw me and gave me a huge hug, the kind of hug I was expecting from Tyler but whatevs. Taylor is the sweetest guy ever. He really is. And I saw Logan, Brit and Maria over at the movies the other night so I asked them if they liked "It's Complicated". Taylor kept an arm around me the whole time we were talking though. (Yes, Taylor is still gay. Phew)
Ahaha, Clayton comes up to me all pouty and is like "I'm mad at you. You're moving. Wtf." And then he gives me a huge hug.
Tyler met Adam for the first time today. :) And I don't remember how the conversation came up but Tyler said to Adam "I feel like her parent. I always feel the need to smack her upside her head when she does stupid stuff like taking medication on an empty stomache. How have you handled her all these years?"
Adam: "I am a bad parent. I let her get away with whatever the hell she wants."
lmao.
Yeah, so now I'm Tyler's five year-old daughter. Eh, whatever he is still my Teddy Bear.
Tyler and I are still all clingy and stuff but I can't be sure of UST yet so I am trying to keep the arm linking a minimum until Tyler figures out if he is just freaking out or if he is indeed straight. Like I said, I love him no matter what so even if he doesn't want to be my gay bff anymore he'll still be my bff. It's just I know he doesn't feel anything for me as more than friends, but I don't want him to get the idea I still may have fallen in like with him. <<
He kind of pissed me off tonight though. He calls me asking if I was going to be up at TJC and tells me he got in a car accident. It was a minor fender bender but he didn't tell me this for a while and I was freaking out. (Car accidents...yeahhhh). But the thing that pissed me off was when he was like "Oh, you aren't worried about me! You're just worried that I can't take you up to Witchita Falls now."
He told me he was just joking but I made him promise not to joke with me like that because yes, I am a parinoid person and the fact that Tyler joked about me being selfish actually made me freak out inwardly, thinking he really thought I was selfish.
I am freaking out. I am parinoid. I am terrified. IDK. I'm beyond excited to see Sarah again but I'm super nervous about Friday. I know for a fact I'll probably break down and cry. Shit.
So much to do tomorrow. I have to open a checking account at Bank of America. And then I have to go up to TJC to lend Tyler some more gas money. He was like "You know it's going to be a while before I can pay you back right?"
"Don't worry about it. Really."
"Bitch, you aren't winning this one so deal with it!" *gigglesnort* ^_^ (I will win).
I know Tyler hates asking me for money but I love that he feels he can depend on me. He'll pay me back, I'll let him "win" but I tell him not to worry about it at all.
I think I want to go see Princess and the Frog tomorrow night. I'm pretty much done packing.