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Okay so scratch that. I am not leaving on the 23rd, I am leaving on the 15th.
This weekend.
Tyler got a new job. And his new job makes him unsure of his availability...
He promised me though and if I pay him X amount of money for gas he'd take me up to move in with Sarah and James. I talked to Mrs. G. My transfer is ago and basically all I have to do is go up there, say "Hey, I worked for the Carmike in Tyler" and they'll get my papers and schedule me.
I have been FREAKING. OUT. (A lot more than usual)
No, I am not going to change my mind...I am leaving on Friday despite what anyone thinks. I AM SICK. Of course I get a sinus infection just one week before I leave. I try to look at it like "Oh, I will get sick now and I won't have to deal with it up there." because I usually get sick once in the winter and once in the summer. I guess this is just my winter time...
But I called in sick for work today. I had to go home early yesterday because I was not feeling right. I had Taco Bell with Chessa, Thomas and Ricky and drank this strawberry slushy thingy and the moment I got home I puked it all up. Ew.
Chessa and Thomas. I'm suprirsed at myself for not ranting about this sooner. They're two of my coworkers and they are into each other. AND IT'S ADORABLE. It really is. Chessa is so fun and Thomas is sweet. The thing is though...Chessa is white and Thomas is mixed. And Chessa's parents are from down south so they have these morals and they don't want their daughter dating anyone who isn't white. She can be friends with him and stuff but as far as a relationship goes...
Wtf. I am sorry, I get that people have their own views on society but I don't get how parents will still try to stop their kids from dating who they want to date. It's not like Thomas is into pot or drugs or even smokes. He's a pretty decent guy as far as decent guys come (and as far as I know him. I only sorta know how he acts outside of work). The thing is Chessa wants to date Thomas too but she is being totally honest with him. *sigh*
I stood home today and without much to distract me I found myself thinking too much again. And Dad and I got in a fight because he thinks that Tyler is trying to take advantage of me and I hate myself because for a second I thought about it and thought "Maybe he is" but it's freaking TYLER. My bff. The best guy friend I have ever had. He would NEVER take advantage of me.
And here's how I know this. I texted him in the midst of one of my freak outs and he called me later to check up on me. He then let me basically speak every worry that has crossed my mind and reassured me the most he could. He was totally against this move in the beginning. Now, he is all for it. He thinks it's the best thing for me. And as far the money, he told me that I only pay him for gas or as much as I could. He asked if he could borrow $125 and I just achieved a bit more than that much at work so I really don't have a problem with lending Tyler some cash. He says he owes me massively. I told him he did more for me this semester than he thought and he disagrees saying I've helped him more than I know...
But I hate myself for ever agreeing even if only for a second with my Dad about Tyler taking advantage of me. BULL SHIT.
Heehee, he and Sarah talked on the phone for the first time today. It was highly amusing. They kept trying to talk over each other (They are both loud people lol) and Kira was throwing out saracastic insults and I am just sitting and laughing my ass off at the two of them. Tyler knows where to go...we should be in Witchita Falls at around 11:00 PM. And Tyler is all excited because I get to meet his family this Saturday and his nephew. And also he wants to show me everything in Witchita Falls including this bridge near this Satanic Church which is really cool (the bridge) but he refuses to take me at night because of the Satanic Church near it. Kay.
Sarah is just excited period. And it sounds like she really liked Tyler so they'll get along when they meet in person. :) I can't wait to see her again! I kept talking to her on the phone after Tyler and Kira hung up and she kept going on about her online comic. Lmao she hasn't changed that much and that kind of makes me happy. She understands me so much and I repeated all my fears to her and she knew exactly what to say to calm me down. I feel a lot better about moving...a lot better than I felt this morning at least.
I slept all day and I am not tired. :) I have work tomorrow morning though. Blech.