Incredibly Lonely

Sep 04, 2005 23:59

You know what I realized today...I don't like the weekends. I like being in school. There are people there who rely on me. They need me. They interact with me. I don't get that on the weekends. Most of the time I sit around waiting for people to call me back. I have a great job, a car and a decent income. What I don't have is friends. I have people I talk to occasionally, and hang out with every once in awhile. My best friend goes to school 6 hours away, and no one else seems to give a damn. So I've decided I'm done. I'm done trying. I've decided to accept the fact that I'm a loner. I'm alone now, and I'll be alone for the rest of my life. If I were to leave tonight, and go to...Mexico, the only people who would notice would be my parents. I don't think anyone would be better off without me or anything like that. There aren't many people who have enough vested in me. If I were to disappear, they wouldn't be affected. I'm nothing, I'm no one, and I just don't matter.

still there

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