You're standing on my neck II
So another Big Bad Migraine started the day and didn’t help with the addition of stressing out over a Tuesday shift. So I was basically not the greatest and almost overly done. So I had another quick meeting asking if everything was cool and what I was stressing over. Again, it was all overwhelming with one treasurer to do all the run around as the other is at box office. I was advised that perhaps I should ask for help and not try to do everything. I understand all that, and it’s very hard to get attention for help when they all have other things to do. I don’t like if they feel that they should be asking if I need the help. I understand and appreciate the fact that they believe I can handle everything thrown at me, however… Also I feel that I shouldn’t have to prompt others to help me out, a bit of my stubborn pride of me asking doesn’t help either. But asking when I’m stressing is not good. Have a look and just do it. But it’s a fault that goes both ways. I shouldn’t try and keep up and just snap at people. But they also suggested perhaps an actual meeting and not just going over audit procedures, and go over helpful things to do; to benefit everyone. Even though it might start a task list to go over every night. Anyways, it’s just the busy nights that seem to do it for me. I don’t want them to take them from me and put me back on floor where I get the short shifts again and a low pay again. I can’t live off floor shifts. Those 3 months were Hell. I’m having this notion that after the 3 paydays of this month goes away, I’m going to be placed back on floor. Even with saving and only managed to splurge a little for Halloween, by cutting things again, I only managed to save a bit back into my savings. I’m slowly trying to build it back up; it’s rather difficult. I’m exhausted again. Trying as I can to get back to where I was financially sturdy, so I can eventually make something of myself. Had a conversation about this and even though I agreed, I just not certain how to do this. I’m also trying not to think about this since it only adds to the stress, then onto the insomnia. :/
This week I’ve been craving bannock. I haven’t had any since I was staying at my father’s and yes my stepmother made a few batches and was not impressed that I ate more than half in just a short time. So during a bout of insomnia, I actually made the bread, it’s bread right? I think I added a bit too much flour as I pressed it into the pan, since it was sticking to my hands like crazy, but it was edible as this is proof that I’ve survived a different food recipe. It wasn’t completely as I remember, and since eggs was optional, I might try that in the next batch.
And I’m usually not much for holidays, and I’m also used to being left out from family events, mostly during the summer, and plus I work mostly at the time. But I’ve been forgotten again; this time for thanksgiving; I don’t like the fact that they don’t even ask. Perhaps retrieving me is too much I don’t know…
Also that couple that brought me the fortune cookies years back, the regulars before they moved, came to a screening we had at work. Thought it was a cast member that hit me with a magazine and was about to say “What the Hell?” lol Too bad I couldn’t talk to them longer since I was asked to clean after the screening and we didn’t have much time before the next show would start.
So I’m hoping to hear from the person to get tickets for Rocky Horror. Even though I’m not going with my usual crew; out of town or studying/busy with assignments; I managed to interest a couple to join or join to. It’s not going to be the same of not throwing rice or confetti at the wedding scenes; the new owners of the theatre posted it up as a no-no. Hard to clean no doubt, I think that’s why there’s no rules for the rest of the items since they’re usually in bigger chunks. It’s another thing I’m splurging before it all goes away. Also I’m not going on Halloween, wanting to go out drinking with Kristi. Her shift was changed, which is unfortunate, but is trying to change it, but plan hasn’t changed for me. One more thing to splurge on. I can watch horror movies and drink at home any weekend or time. That weekend is going to kill me. -lol- On top of going to RHPS, later on I will be working on a second batch of cupcakes and then work on Halloween mourning. I was going to be there early, to drop off and to see Elizabeth’s monkey boy. So I might as well, and NOW this year they have a contest for costumes. :/ I can’t finish Alice in time or re-fix the Lydia one. Plus it’s a lot. So this year I’m going as Sarah from Labyrinth. I do have a big chunk of items already for it, just needed a boost to finish it up. All it needs is socks, make a broach and maybe add a tie at the back of the waistcoat. Little crafting thing which I will be posting about maybe in the next entry.
This week I’ve been craving bannock. I haven’t had any since I was staying at my father’s and yes my stepmother made a few batches and was not impressed that I ate more than half in just a short time. So during a bout of insomnia, I actually made the bread, it’s bread right? I think I added a bit too much flour as I pressed it into the pan, since it was sticking to my hands like crazy, but it was edible as this is proof that I’ve survived a different food recipe. It wasn’t completely as I remember, and since eggs was optional, I might try that in the next batch.
And I’m usually not much for holidays, and I’m also used to being left out from family events, mostly during the summer, and plus I work mostly at the time. But I’ve been forgotten again; this time for thanksgiving; I don’t like the fact that they don’t even ask. Perhaps retrieving me is too much I don’t know…
Also that couple that brought me the fortune cookies years back, the regulars before they moved, came to a screening we had at work. Thought it was a cast member that hit me with a magazine and was about to say “What the Hell?” lol Too bad I couldn’t talk to them longer since I was asked to clean after the screening and we didn’t have much time before the next show would start.
So I’m hoping to hear from the person to get tickets for Rocky Horror. Even though I’m not going with my usual crew; out of town or studying/busy with assignments; I managed to interest a couple to join or join to. It’s not going to be the same of not throwing rice or confetti at the wedding scenes; the new owners of the theatre posted it up as a no-no. Hard to clean no doubt, I think that’s why there’s no rules for the rest of the items since they’re usually in bigger chunks. It’s another thing I’m splurging before it all goes away. Also I’m not going on Halloween, wanting to go out drinking with Kristi. Her shift was changed, which is unfortunate, but is trying to change it, but plan hasn’t changed for me. One more thing to splurge on. I can watch horror movies and drink at home any weekend or time. That weekend is going to kill me. -lol- On top of going to RHPS, later on I will be working on a second batch of cupcakes and then work on Halloween mourning. I was going to be there early, to drop off and to see Elizabeth’s monkey boy. So I might as well, and NOW this year they have a contest for costumes. :/ I can’t finish Alice in time or re-fix the Lydia one. Plus it’s a lot. So this year I’m going as Sarah from Labyrinth. I do have a big chunk of items already for it, just needed a boost to finish it up. All it needs is socks, make a broach and maybe add a tie at the back of the waistcoat. Little crafting thing which I will be posting about maybe in the next entry.