lost
i'm so fucking confused. maybe you are too, idk. i feel like i cant breathe, like my heart is being cut out of my chest one tiny sliver at a time. i still want so much to believe that you love me or that you could love me. you have no idea how desperately i need you. it's actually kind of sad. i love you so much that im willing to put myself through this, im pathetic. i'd die to know you love me but im all alone. why won't you just kill me? it would be so much easier. you could be rid of me, have your daughter, the person you really want to be with, and i could still die having loved you. i just dont know what to think anymore.