Sensual Red Lights- fan fiction- gazette/ alice nine/ d'espairsray-6/?

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Title:  Sensual Red Lights
author: Me..? Sarcasm_chan
warning: well, ...yaoi and vulgar language sometimes... english is not my mother-tongue..not beta-read
pairings: ShouxHiroto( One-sided) , Sagax?, ToraxHiroto , Uruhax?,  RukixUruha (one-sided), Aoix?
disclaimers: unfortunately, their manager didn't want to sell them to me ;_; the meanie wants them for his own use -_-; so, i don't own them....
rating: - dunno NC17 is a bit overdone I think???
genre: manxman (a lot), drama
  Summary:
Uruha is a porn-star in the yaoi scene, his biggest rival is Ruki.

previous:

6

”Hello?” Shou’s voice sounds through the intercom.
”It’s me!”
”Ah, ok, I’ll open the door…”
And with a lot of noise, the door of the flat opens. Shou’s apartment is at the 5th floor, it was a long time since he’d been at Shou’s.

”Heya!”
”Eh, Hey.” Shou answers. He sounds a bit…surprised and uncomfortable. “What can I do for you?”
”Ah didn’t you expect me? I thought you recognized my voice.”
”Eh no, I thought you were someone else…” Shou adds a watery smile.
”Ah well, I just remembered our little talk. I truly think we should hang out more Shou.”
”I see…Ah, hang on; someone else is calling the intercom.”

”Hello?” Shou’s voice sounds through the intercom.
”It’s me!” Uruha shouts cheerful.
”…I’ll eh, I’ll let you in.”
Again the noisy door opens, and Uruha this time, walks up all five the stairs to Shou’s apartment. They really should build an elevator here.

Uruha knows the door is open, his door always is open…And if it isn't, Uruha has a key.
”Yo Shou! Here I am!” Uruha shouts cheerful as he opens the door, and walks inside, he doesn’t look up as he walks into the living room. “Missed me darling?” He grins.
After this sentence he looks up and expects to face Shou, instead…Someone else is standing in front of him.

”Ah, eh Uru-kun,” Shou mumbles from behind the man. “I eh got a visitor…”
”Yeah,” Uruha grins. “I notice…Nice to see you again!”
”Same.” The visitor smiles.
”And eh, what brings you here, Saga?” Uruha smiles.

”I wanted to ask if Shou fancied a dinner, but I guess he already had plans with you.” Saga answers, with his cool voice, but though with a smile.

”Ah, well eh…I guess I could come back later and-“ Uruha starts, but then he notices Shou standing behind Saga, soundless shaking his head, with a panicked expression on his face, waving with his hands, trying to make Uruha clear that he doesn’t want to go out with Saga.
”-But eh…Now thinking about it, I am full for the rest of the week, and I do have something to discuss with our little Shou, so guess it is a bit of a bad timing indeed.” Uruha smiles to Saga.
”I see…” Saga says slowly, looking at Shou from the corners of his eyes, but Shou immediately stopped waving, and now looks innocent to the other side of the room. “Well guess I could better leave then.”
”I am sorry Saga…” Shou says. “Maybe another time?”
”Ah well, I don’t know. My agenda is pretty full as well.” Saga says.
That sentence made Shou look caught, and Saga notices the ashamed look on his face.
”But I’ll call if I find a hole in it.” Saga says friendly then, and smiles at Shou.
”Yeah,” Shou says softly.
”Well, bye then Shou, Uruha.” Saga says, as he walks to the front door and opens it. “Oh and Shou-“
“Yes?” Shou asks, still a bit uncomfortable.
”You didn’t change. At all.” And Saga closes the door behind him.

“Oh my.” Shou mumbles and he lets himself drop on his couch.
”Well, well.” Uruha grins.
”Stop grinning Uruha.” Shou says.
”Why? I find it very amusing.”
”It isn’t. It fucking isn’t. But thanks for your help though.”
”No problem…But why didn’t you want to go out with him? We hang out so often, it’s no problem for me.”
”I do not care about that! I don’t want to go out with him!” Shou shouts.
”Why not Shou? What happened between the two of you?”
”NOTHING!”
”Liar.” Uruha says decisive. “You know you’re lying Shou. If it really was nothing, you should have told me. Always when I asked, you changed subjects, but I know something is bothering you, and just seeing that scene, makes me conclude HE is involved.”
Shou groans. “I just don’t want to…make the same mistake again.”
”Which was?” Uruha asks softly. He walks over to Shou and sits down next to him on the couch.
Shou sighs, and looks up at Uruha. “Are you sure you want to know? It is pretty stupid…”
That made Uruha laugh out loud. “Oh my Shou, how could THAT be a problem? I mean, look at my problems! My problems are the most stupid ones ever! But you always listen to them…Always.”
”…Okay maybe it’s not that stupid.” Shou grins.
”Then tell me Shou-kun.” Uruha smiles.

“About two years ago, I met him. I just met him somewhere…And I liked him. I liked him a lot. He was sexy, he was funny, and cool. He just made my head go crazy, if you get what I mean. I had a fucking huge crush on that guy.”
”…And?” Uruha asks.
”And then we went out, just once. We went out for dinner.”
”And?”
”And I thought…I thought he liked me. So, I kissed him.”
”And?”
”And he didn’t kiss me back. He pushed me away and was like “eh? What the hell are you doing?””
”…Oh…” Uruha softly says.
”I was perplexed, and he said we were only friends! Nothing more than friends. So no kissing. He left after that. He left and never came back.
I didn’t even know he was…what we are. That I found out when we watched that DVD from Ruki at Karyu’s place.”
”Autch…” Uruha softly says.
”I finally got over him…And then met Hiroto. And…Well, I made the same mistake with Hiroto. I keep on making the same mistake...”
“What mistake Shou? I didn’t hear you tell me something you did wrong.” Uruha says.
”The mistake of thinking guys like me while we’re only friends! I did it with Saga, and I did it with Hiroto too! And before them I did it as well…”

”But how come he came back now?” Uruha softly asks. “Saga, I mean.”
“…During your promo. Well, I couldn’t get in; the door was still closed when I arrived at the studio. So I waited, and then I bumped into Hiroto and his boyfriend.” Shou pauses to take a breath; Uruha sees that this is very difficult for him.
”And…Well I kind of fled for them, I walked away to avoid a longer conversation…And then I slumped against a wall. But-“
”Then Saga found you?” Uruha says, while he puts a hand on Shou’s shoulder.
Shou nods. “And he was very surprised to see me there, so was I to see him. We talked, at least, he talked to me. And then he said he would call…To hang out again.”
”And he did. Even worse, he visited you.” Uruha sighs. “But…What is the problem Shou? Do you still like him? Is that why you don’t want to hang out with him?”
”N-no. Well, maybe…But-“ Shou sighs. “I was, again, afraid he liked me, while he actually doesn’t… And he noticed. That is what he means with “You didn’t change at all.”” Shou sighs. “He probably won’t call anymore…”

Uruha sighs too. Poor Shou…The guy doesn’t deserve this; he really deserves to find a nice boyfriend. Or girlfriend, In Shou’s case it doesn’t really matter… But he always ends up broken hearted.
Uruha finds it unfair…Shou is such a good guy, a loyal friend, a good listener, he is handsome as well… Shou won’t let you down, whatever happens.
”…If he doesn’t call you back.” Uruha suddenly says decisive. “He is the most retarded bastard ever. So is Hiroto! For not realizing how good you are!”
Shou looks surprised at Uruha.
”I mean it!” Uruha continues. “You deserve the best lover in the world! You deserve to get settled! And the Squirrel doesn’t deserve you! And I don’t know if Saga does, but if he truly doesn’t see how great you are, he doesn’t deserve you either! Also not to be your friend!”

”…Thank you…” Shou softly says.
”Anytime.” Uruha smiles. “And now…What’s for dinner?”

He walks up several stairs till he finds the door he was looking for. He grins, and gets his key out of his pocket. Staring at the key made him grin again.
He opens the door, and walks inside, softly closing the door behind him.
He walks straight into the bedroom, just like the last time he used this house.
He glares around one last time to make sure he is alone, and then puts down the bottle of wine.
He puts some roses around it, and looks at the result.
In the end, he puts the letter against the bottle; it is exact the same wine as the time before.

He still grins as he closes the door behind him again.
If this won’t work, he doesn’t know anymore.

Aoi carefully puts his key back into his pocket, Uruha is such a fool for leaving it in the door once, Aoi took his chance, and made a copy of it.
He smiles widely, and leaves the flat.
Foolish, foolish Uruha. He fell in his trap with eyes wide open.
Aoi knows Uruha is suspecting Ruki from it, Aoi knows Uruha is noticing Ruki’s weird behaviour. Aoi knows, Uruha is suspecting something.
And as soon as Uruha has enough reasons, he’ll ask if Ruki can be replaced, then he wouldn’t want to work with Ruki anymore. And that is Aoi’s goal.
To keep Ruki away from Uruha, and the other way around.
Divide and prevail.
And Aoi shall prevail, as he always did.
Kai didn’t fall for Aoi’s trap, he chose Uruha anyway. Aoi hoped he would have picked Ruki, it was easier to reach his goal if Ruki played the head-part, Aoi could make their minds go crazy, Aoi could make it seem the way he wants it.
But Kai didn’t fall for it, so Aoi has to do it the old-fashioned way. He has to continue his “jokes” with the wine, to reach both his goals.

”Shou? It’s me again…”
”Again? Wow, calm down Uru, before we know it, people will think we’re a serious couple!” Shou laughs.
”Yeah…I know.” Uruha’s voice sounds a bit weird.
”What’s it Uru? Did you forget something at my place? Did my pasta poison you?”
”No…Shou, it happened again…”
”Eh?” but Shou suddenly sounds way more serious, he is noticing something is wrong.
”…He did it again Shou.”
“Who? Who did what?” Shou says confused.
”I came home…and everything seemed really normal, but then I walked into my bedroom and- and-…”
”…Another bottle of wine?”
”Yes. And again a letter.”
”What does it say?”
”I don’t dare to open it Shou. This is scaring the hell out of me. Do you know what this means Shou? He has my KEY!”
”…Fuck. Do you want me to come over?”
”I would like you to.”
”Did you call the police Uru?”
”…Should I call them?”
”It won’t be a stupid thing to do, if it is truly scaring you.”
”…Maybe I will. But first, come Shou!” Uruha sounds a bit desperate.

”Saga!” Nao smiles. “There you are, you’re back fast…Well that’s probably what fast-food is meant for.” The shorter manager laughs.
”I didn’t eat fast-food.”
”Oh, well then you had the smallest meal ever…” Nao says surprised.
”I didn’t eat at all.” Saga sighs, and he drops his coat and sits down on the couch, the room is messy, and the tables are full of old pizza boxes and other boxes from take-away meals. Clothes that should have been in the laundry are spread over the floors and the furniture, old papers are stacked in the corner, old coffee cups on the cabinet. Saga isn’t home that often, so why should he clean? The only one that comes here is Nao, which makes sense, cause he lives in this apartment too.
Friends and workmates, that’s what they are. They live the lives of college-people, with messy apartments, long nights and lots of one-night-stands, alcohol and sometimes even drugs. But instead of college, Saga works.
He isn’t proud of what he is, but he was too lazy to learn a job, and somehow…he suddenly came into this. But Saga doesn’t really have ambitions to get further involved in the scene than he is now, and Nao, as his manager, respects his choice.
Their lives are okay.

”You didn’t eat? I thought you were going to eat outdoors today…I didn’t cook for you.” With “cooking”, Nao means: “I didn’t get something from the Thai for you.”
”Doesn’t matter, I am not hungry.” Saga says grumpy. ”I am off…I think I am going to take a walk or something.”
”…Saga, what’s wrong?” Nao asks.
”NOTHING!”
”Yeah, and our apartment is clean and huge.” He says sarcastic.
Saga groans. “Nao, please…Sarcasm doesn’t suit you.”
”Well, you- you- you’re a bad liar!” Nao says indignant.
”…Bye Nao.” And Saga wants to close the door.

”SAGA!” Nao shouts, while opening the door after Saga closed it. “Come back!”
”Why?” Saga says calm.
”Cause- cause-…Something’s wrong and I want to know why! I don’t care you don’t want to talk to me or-“
”I didn’t say that Nao-chan, you can come with me if you want to.”
 “I can’t, I am having this cold eh?” Nao says softly.
”Well…I’ll be back soon…” Saga shrugs, and walks further, out of the building.He kicks an empty can away from the pavement, and walks further into the dark streets of the city.
He sighs as he looks up at the familiar apartment-building across the street. Deep inside, Saga wants to talk to Shou again, but that would be too early. Shou would think Saga’s after him, again. While Saga isn’t. He just wants to…
What does he exactly want?
What does it matter what Shou thinks?
Saga groans, and shakes his head. Then puts his hands in his pockets and silently walks further, his gaze concentrated on the pavement.
But just a few steps further, Saga turns his head around to look at Shou’s apartment again, he doesn’t know why himself. Some kind of feeling, intuition probably.

Shou comes out of his apartment, walks down the gallery and the stairs, until he comes out of the building, he seems to be in a hurry.
Saga stares at him, until Shou runs into his direction. If Shou sees him, he’ll think Saga is stalking him or something…
So Saga turns his head away as Shou passes him.

In his hurry, Shou didn’t really pay attention to the pedestrian on the pavement, but for a small second he thought it was-
’NO, stop it Shou. You’re AGAIN making the SAME mistake! Now go to Uruha, and help him.’

Saga sighs; a part of him wanted Shou to recognize him. But why Saga wanted that, he doesn’t know…It just doesn’t make sense.
Not really minding his feet, Saga walks further into the silent streets, this part of the neighbourhood really is silent at night…
Then suddenly Saga’s thoughts are interrupted as he bumps into another man.
”Auch! Mind where you’re going!” The man says.
”Sorry…” Saga mumbles.
”Oi, aren’t you…Saga?”
Saga looks up, and sees the man with dark hair, and a lip ring. “Ah…It’s you.” Is everything Saga says.
”Hmmm…Well, coincidental to find you here. Don’t you live at the other side of the-“
”Yes I do.” Saga interrupts his sentence, a bit rude. He doesn’t really like this guy, Saga finds him arrogant, and there’s something about Aoi, he doesn’t completely trust.
”So, what are you doing here?” Aoi asks with a huge grin.
”Same question for you. You live three neighbourhoods away if I remember correctly.” Saga says cold.
”Yeah well…Just…some business.” Aoi grins. While he said that, Aoi’s hand slowly moved to his pocket, where he seems to grab something, what made him grin wider.
Saga looks at that with pulled up eyebrows; does he actually want to know what Aoi’s up to? “Well,” Aoi says then. “It was a…pleasure, to meet you Saga.”
”The pleasure was all mine, Aoi.” Saga mumbles.
Aoi wants to walk away, as Saga suddenly says: “Doesn’t…Uruha live there?”
”Eh?” Aoi says surprised. “Eh…Who?”
”…Never mind.” Saga mumbles slowly and thoughtful. “Bye Aoi…”

”Surprise, here I am again, guess I couldn’t stand it to only attend you to our bond once.

And, did you find out who I am and what I’ve done or am doing?
My revenge is still continuing, it won’t stop till I reached my goal.

That goal, is aimed highly, it is a beautiful goal.
I won’t give up, ever.

You still didn’t beat me.

One step closer to the solution of the riddle!

Nothing is what it seems.

P.S: Same wine, since I want to convince you of its quality.
P.P.S: Nice legs.
P.P.P.S: I’ll see you very soon, I’ll watch you a lot, and I’ll think about you even more. Remember, that I am close to you.

See you very, very soon, Thunderthigh.”