hymn for the alcohol
I have realised that drinking after a 2 week ban has turned me into an obnoxious and self centered person.
How annoying was I yesterday?!
It was all 'me me me'.
Normally I am so easy going and bend over backwards to make sure that other people are happy, but yesterday, fueled by many vodkas, I thought I was the most important person on the planet and didn't really think about how other people might be feeling. Or what they wanted.
I just wanted to make me happy, and I feel so bad now because it is so unlike me.
Usually I'm too nice and generous for my own good.
Usually.
Today I am nursing a sore head, which is just a constant reminder of how bad I must have been.
I really am nice most of the time, but on nights like last night, I wonder why anyone actually bothers with me.
I should have been ignored ,or told to be quiet and go to bed at the very least.
Today I want to curl up in a small hole and hide away from everyone.
I'm not this cool, amazing girl that people think I am.
I'm rubbish. I really am.
How annoying was I yesterday?!
It was all 'me me me'.
Normally I am so easy going and bend over backwards to make sure that other people are happy, but yesterday, fueled by many vodkas, I thought I was the most important person on the planet and didn't really think about how other people might be feeling. Or what they wanted.
I just wanted to make me happy, and I feel so bad now because it is so unlike me.
Usually I'm too nice and generous for my own good.
Usually.
Today I am nursing a sore head, which is just a constant reminder of how bad I must have been.
I really am nice most of the time, but on nights like last night, I wonder why anyone actually bothers with me.
I should have been ignored ,or told to be quiet and go to bed at the very least.
Today I want to curl up in a small hole and hide away from everyone.
I'm not this cool, amazing girl that people think I am.
I'm rubbish. I really am.