Only one more night...
Yesterday was a wonderful day. It didn't start out great as we had the usual difficulties actually getting out the door. We went to the library for story time and N did better. He sat for about 15 minutes before he ran out of the room. I don't know how to make him more comfortable with group activities, except to take him to them, and it wears me out to chase him down when he's had enough. He also thinks it's funny right now to run as far away from me as he can. Ugh!
After lunch at home, we headed out to a friend's house for the afternoon. N usually freaks out when we go there because her daughter is pretty high energy, but by the end of the day, they were having a wild time together. Another friend came over with her twins and we all hung out outside and let the kids play while we got to talk. Oh, yeah, that's the best kind of SAH day! It certainly made it really hard to come to work today.
I'm about 90% sure that I am going to quit my job. The last two days were hard, very hard, but at the end of the day, I was glad I had been with N all day. There were definitely moments where I thought there was no way we'd survive the day, but then we'd find something new to do and suddenly life was good again. And, unless something major happens in the next couple of days, we'll have survived on DH's salary this month, without trying all that hard. And he'll get a raise in January. So, I think we can swing the financial end of things.
I'm at the no stres point of my cycle, so I'm not even fixated on TTC. I'm sure I'll be a nutcase again in a couple of weeks, but for now I'm feeling pretty good. I still have moments when I wish I was big and round with the baby we lost or even just getting sick from a new pregnancy, but we'll get there. I hope. If not, well, I'll deal with that point in the road when I get there....
After lunch at home, we headed out to a friend's house for the afternoon. N usually freaks out when we go there because her daughter is pretty high energy, but by the end of the day, they were having a wild time together. Another friend came over with her twins and we all hung out outside and let the kids play while we got to talk. Oh, yeah, that's the best kind of SAH day! It certainly made it really hard to come to work today.
I'm about 90% sure that I am going to quit my job. The last two days were hard, very hard, but at the end of the day, I was glad I had been with N all day. There were definitely moments where I thought there was no way we'd survive the day, but then we'd find something new to do and suddenly life was good again. And, unless something major happens in the next couple of days, we'll have survived on DH's salary this month, without trying all that hard. And he'll get a raise in January. So, I think we can swing the financial end of things.
I'm at the no stres point of my cycle, so I'm not even fixated on TTC. I'm sure I'll be a nutcase again in a couple of weeks, but for now I'm feeling pretty good. I still have moments when I wish I was big and round with the baby we lost or even just getting sick from a new pregnancy, but we'll get there. I hope. If not, well, I'll deal with that point in the road when I get there....