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empty spaces...fill me up with holes..distant faces..with no place left to go, without u within me, i cant find no rest, where im goin...IS anybodys guess. I TTRIED TO GO ON LIKE I NEVER KNEW U, IM AWAKE BUT MY WORLD IS HALF ASLEEP. I PRAY FOR THIS HEART TO BE UNBROKEN.
- I LOVE THE NEW BACKSTREET BOYS. ITS AMAZING. sorry, im lil miss sappy pants right now, so i love them again. makes me feel like im back in the 7th grade, so innocent and full of crazy boy crushes! but now it hurts alot when u get involved. i used to wish so much when i was younger that i could just date the boys i liked...omgoodness did i not realize how much it hurt? how much it hurt to really act upon your feelings? it tears your heart apart and builds it up all at the same time.
Summer is near. less than 3 weeks and i will be home. my heart will miss so many people. i hate missing people, i hate it! it sucks because if u no longer hurt for them then u feel like they are gone. like when i go days on end not hurting over my mom being gone i get scared i dont love her or miss her. and i know thats not true, its just i cant go on hurting every day just to keep her alive in me. i have to let go in some ways. but i dont want to let go of these people. they are still here, alive on this earth. i never want to forget them, but im scared i will to stop hurting. oh dear what is wrong with me!
On a lighter note..sort of...i dont wanna do school work? im bored. someone come give me something to do. okay, thanks.
- I LOVE THE NEW BACKSTREET BOYS. ITS AMAZING. sorry, im lil miss sappy pants right now, so i love them again. makes me feel like im back in the 7th grade, so innocent and full of crazy boy crushes! but now it hurts alot when u get involved. i used to wish so much when i was younger that i could just date the boys i liked...omgoodness did i not realize how much it hurt? how much it hurt to really act upon your feelings? it tears your heart apart and builds it up all at the same time.
Summer is near. less than 3 weeks and i will be home. my heart will miss so many people. i hate missing people, i hate it! it sucks because if u no longer hurt for them then u feel like they are gone. like when i go days on end not hurting over my mom being gone i get scared i dont love her or miss her. and i know thats not true, its just i cant go on hurting every day just to keep her alive in me. i have to let go in some ways. but i dont want to let go of these people. they are still here, alive on this earth. i never want to forget them, but im scared i will to stop hurting. oh dear what is wrong with me!
On a lighter note..sort of...i dont wanna do school work? im bored. someone come give me something to do. okay, thanks.