summer.
i love life as it is.
i love throwing everything i own away and giving the rest to goodwill.
i love how empty and simple my room is.
i like not walking into my room all day and sitting on the porch instead.
i like letting the sun wash over me and bathe me in it's light.
i like reading gospel doctrine full of advice for the future.
i like baking and eating and praying for freckles.
i really love matthew aaron widdison.
it may not last forever (although i wouldn't complain...) but i hope i always remember what it is like to be utterly and completely in love.
i hope it convinces me to never settle again.
why settle when i can have someone as amazing as my best friend?
i love him.
he is wonderful.
he's smart, hilarious, full of random facts, and helps people.
he helps everybody.
he makes me want to be a better person.
i would like nothing more at this moment than to be with him.
and not just next to him, but a part of him.
because he lives in me and i in him.
i could talk for hours just quoting him and talking about him.
i could talk to him for years and years.
we talked on the phone three separate times today, parting only because we have way too much to do.
but if i had it my way...
i wouldn't spend a second apart.
however, life comes into play.
and he is at college and i here.
and that's okay.
because i haven't physically felt him in two and a half monthes, but that hasn't changed our relationship.
every day we are more and more in love with each other.
because our relationship is based on so much more than physical attraction.
our souls seem to be combined.
we need each other.
could we live without each other?
sure.
but we wouldn't do it willingly.
i love this.
i love this state of being,
existing,
and loving every moment life chooses to throw at me.
becuase each is an opportunity to love a little more.
whomever or whatever it may be.
today i fell in love with:
learning,
the disciple-scholar,
matthew aaron widdison,
love itself,
brownies,
cold milk,
warm concrete,
east,
the sunset,
the sunrise,
the sun,
the color blue,
pianos buried in books,
warm fur,
the moby dick beyond catholic school girls,
and my freckles.