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so its been a bit since i updated last.
i've been working quite a bit. not a ton i guess, but i think its enough. with all the smart fun kids and the actual demand of getting myself to and from work, i'm exhausted. its really starting to get to me that for every day that i work, i spend about an hour and a half driving. i spend so much time in period clothing that by the time i get home, i have absolutely no energy to do anything else. i miss wearing normal clothes.
i'm really starting to go back and forth with my feelings about work. some days, i really hate everything about it and others i have a good time. i really don't want to leave, but since i have a degree now, i feel like i should be trying to find something better. i don't really feel like i can do anything about that right now, i just have to get through the summer and see what happens when its time to start school. i'm kind of pumped to get to ypsi so i can get my shit together.
right now, i feel like life is a mess literally. i'm ready to throw everything i own out and start again. since everything i own is a mess, it leaves me feeling unsettled. since things are in such upheaval, i don't feel like i have time to do what i want to get done.
i have the next two days off. maybe i can get some things in order and feel a little bit better about how things are going. maybe then i can finally settle down and relax.
only about two and a half more weeks till chicago. i can't wait. hopefully that'll get me out of my funk.
i've been working quite a bit. not a ton i guess, but i think its enough. with all the smart fun kids and the actual demand of getting myself to and from work, i'm exhausted. its really starting to get to me that for every day that i work, i spend about an hour and a half driving. i spend so much time in period clothing that by the time i get home, i have absolutely no energy to do anything else. i miss wearing normal clothes.
i'm really starting to go back and forth with my feelings about work. some days, i really hate everything about it and others i have a good time. i really don't want to leave, but since i have a degree now, i feel like i should be trying to find something better. i don't really feel like i can do anything about that right now, i just have to get through the summer and see what happens when its time to start school. i'm kind of pumped to get to ypsi so i can get my shit together.
right now, i feel like life is a mess literally. i'm ready to throw everything i own out and start again. since everything i own is a mess, it leaves me feeling unsettled. since things are in such upheaval, i don't feel like i have time to do what i want to get done.
i have the next two days off. maybe i can get some things in order and feel a little bit better about how things are going. maybe then i can finally settle down and relax.
only about two and a half more weeks till chicago. i can't wait. hopefully that'll get me out of my funk.