useless.
i feel so incompetant when it comes to things outside of school anymore.
i have no more coping skills.
i hate being so lacking in self confidence. i try to build it up, but it's always so fragile that it doesn't take much but a strong wind or a funny glance and i'm back to where i started.
i'm lonely. i'm bored. sick of this place. ...all of this is my fault. i'm a shitty friend. at the moment i can't remedy that because i can't completely grasp anything. so thus i sit.
i don't want to work. i don't want to read. i am over going to class. i'm just done. i'm done tryin things that don't seem to yield results..at least those i'm looking for.
but i have to suck it up, take a deep breath, close my eyes and just do it. eventually maybe i won't be forcing myself. i may create a habit of things. who knows? i just have to get through the next 16 weeks then i'm home free.
i can't wait till summer.
i have no more coping skills.
i hate being so lacking in self confidence. i try to build it up, but it's always so fragile that it doesn't take much but a strong wind or a funny glance and i'm back to where i started.
i'm lonely. i'm bored. sick of this place. ...all of this is my fault. i'm a shitty friend. at the moment i can't remedy that because i can't completely grasp anything. so thus i sit.
i don't want to work. i don't want to read. i am over going to class. i'm just done. i'm done tryin things that don't seem to yield results..at least those i'm looking for.
but i have to suck it up, take a deep breath, close my eyes and just do it. eventually maybe i won't be forcing myself. i may create a habit of things. who knows? i just have to get through the next 16 weeks then i'm home free.
i can't wait till summer.