grrr
I lose things. It drives me nuts. No one else in the house seems to have this problem, but then everyone else in the house has more space than me. I can't explain how much it bothers me. I don't loose things. Never. I'm really detail oriented in this way, I can keep track of many many many many meaningless details, I have pens from high school, hell, I have teeny tiny erasers from high school. But right now, I can't keep track of anything. Right now, off the top of my head I'm missing a favorite brown skirt, a beloved red sweatshirt, my camera case, a check made out to me, a grey fleece sock, a black headband, a white scarf, a book I wanted to read, and my checkbook. I don't understand it. Stuff does not loose itself. If I put something down, I should be able to pick it right back up. And I have a very good memory for that kind of pointless detail. I can tell you all about the history of that red sweatshirt, where I got it, and when and for how much and how mad it made me because I told him not to, but I was really touched and even though we're not friends anymore, how that red sweatshirt always made me happy, and comforted me. I can tell you about the patch, and how I wore it with my brown j-crew jacket. I wore it on a not-date with a crazy christian, and in france, and how my brother cruelly stole it for a while to punish me and then just after I got it back from him it disappeared from our living room. Meanyhead. I can tell you about pictures in which I am wearing it. But I cannot tell you where it is. And it makes my skin itch, and my skull feel too big for my head, and I don't understand, and I feel helpless and it makes me want to scream. This is the hardest part of living with so many people. Things go missing, and you can't blame anyone, and really its not worth it to nag everyone else to look, because either its in their stuff, or its not, and either they will find it and give it back, or they won't and they are going to get pissed off if you keep asking them to search. And why is it always my favorite items that go missing? Why can't it be that ugly red sweater? I wouldn't mind so much if that went missing, but I need these items to live.