what we might discuss at the dinner table, ironic
"and how we just hate being alone..."
so i've been kind of busy. i keep being so scared that i am going to forget something. seriously if i lost my planner anytime in the next couple of weeks, i think i would have a breakdown and cry. deadlines, papers, appointments....it's all relative. and i keep drinking coffee practically 3 times a day and forgetting to eat meals. when i actually go to eat, nothing seems appetizing to me and it's all downhill from there. there are all different types of eating disorders, and i think i have a new one. it's called...i forget to eat. i really don't mean to, but everyday around 3 or 4 i will start either having a stomach or headache and feeling very faint and then say to myself "oh sarah...you forgot to eat again." now don't go writing comments saying this or that or "sarah take care of yourself" i am fine. i DO eat. i'm just saying that sometimes i forget. it's all relative.
i cannot decide if i want to apply to be an RA or not. do i really want to be an RA my senior year? however, it would save money. however, i would have to be on-call on some weekends which would be kind of annoying. however, i would get paid a tiny bit. however, it's not really enough to talk about. if i don't live there though, i'll probably end up living in prexy which would be really nice. hmm. i don't know. i do know that i am really gonna miss my roommates from this year. it has been amazing living with julie, casey, and pretty much tasha. those girls are so great.
my birthday is pretty soon and i normally get pretty excited about that. i have rehearsal all day that day for galileo, but still it's my 21st birthday so that's exciting.
i need to stop holding on and believing it can change.
so i've been kind of busy. i keep being so scared that i am going to forget something. seriously if i lost my planner anytime in the next couple of weeks, i think i would have a breakdown and cry. deadlines, papers, appointments....it's all relative. and i keep drinking coffee practically 3 times a day and forgetting to eat meals. when i actually go to eat, nothing seems appetizing to me and it's all downhill from there. there are all different types of eating disorders, and i think i have a new one. it's called...i forget to eat. i really don't mean to, but everyday around 3 or 4 i will start either having a stomach or headache and feeling very faint and then say to myself "oh sarah...you forgot to eat again." now don't go writing comments saying this or that or "sarah take care of yourself" i am fine. i DO eat. i'm just saying that sometimes i forget. it's all relative.
i cannot decide if i want to apply to be an RA or not. do i really want to be an RA my senior year? however, it would save money. however, i would have to be on-call on some weekends which would be kind of annoying. however, i would get paid a tiny bit. however, it's not really enough to talk about. if i don't live there though, i'll probably end up living in prexy which would be really nice. hmm. i don't know. i do know that i am really gonna miss my roommates from this year. it has been amazing living with julie, casey, and pretty much tasha. those girls are so great.
my birthday is pretty soon and i normally get pretty excited about that. i have rehearsal all day that day for galileo, but still it's my 21st birthday so that's exciting.
i need to stop holding on and believing it can change.