SCHOOL!!!
The count down is now down to less then a week and I am so excited I can hardly wait. That's right, I'm a nerd who's happy for that start of school! I don't just look forward to all the classes and nifty books I get to read, or all the awesome stuff I'll be learning and researching, I also look forward to meeting new people and running into old classmates, and maybe an old friend or two. I suppose I could also add on the less geeky side that I am totally physced about Karate resuming. All summer with no training and no practice, one thing is certian...my body is going to hate me the first month of classes! And for more happy news, as if this wasn't already enough, I have an offical title in the club. Yes that's right I am the tresurer! I get to be the due natzi...or not. I'm so glad to have an officle role in the club, I just wish it had happened before the president left and said, 'oh btw you need to get the room and everything else done'. A week before classes too no doubt. Ah well, I can so handle it because I am Supper Sarah, able to multi-task, handle many annoyances, deal with people of low intellegence, and still manage to keep my cool.
Speaking of low intellegince, the lastest from my roommate...I believe she was totally waisted Friday night, at least she had to be for this one. I get up Saturday to find to door not only unlocked, but open...yup, open. The real smart thing on her part was leaving her purse right by the door. I would of hidden it from her but I knew I could just yell at her latter and it'd be just as good. Well now there is a new apartment rule, the door locks by midnight. If you're out then you're staying out. She agreed to it so we'll see how long it takes before she comes pounding on the door at one in the morning wanting back in...ain't gonna happen!
Other then all that my latest worry is that I am no longer able to recive student loans through the college. I am lucky that this summester between my finacial aid and money from Michigan Works that every thing will be paid for with may just a few bucks to spair. I plain on taking out a loan from a bank that does college loans so I won't have to pay it back untill after I gradguate. But this is also a good thing, this year I actually get finacial aid...which means I can get student work. I already checked and food services needs workers. It's perfect! I won't have to deduct student work income out of my s.s. income, so I can actual save up some money for things like car expences, paying back college loans, money for extra bills...and hey, maybe even a little money for some fun!
Lately I have been thinking a lot about what went down between a former friend and me. I wonder if I did things right or if I made a mistake in ending it all. They do say that time will heal all wounds, and I wonder if my wound has finally begun to heal. I'm sure that things couldn't have been any other way, and that even now I still cannot think of trying again. I am a slow healer, I always have been. I have dark spots all over my arms from were I had a scratch heal over, but the skin hasn't fully repaired. It feels the same for my soul. There is still a big dark spot on it. It's healed, I feel like the infection is out, but it's still not back to how it was before. I do believe I am happier now, even though the whole thing still makes me sad. Perhaps it was just one of those things where I had to get hurt to learn my lesson...to follow a new path. I do believe that every now and again you have to shed what was and begin moving into the what will be. For me, I was a nieve friend, now I am more careful with myself and more willing to put myself above others. It feels good, and right, and balanced. I no longer have to depend on my friends or family to provide happiness for me. I have found a way to bring happiness into my life on my own, and that is truely the greatest feeling in the world!
Speaking of low intellegince, the lastest from my roommate...I believe she was totally waisted Friday night, at least she had to be for this one. I get up Saturday to find to door not only unlocked, but open...yup, open. The real smart thing on her part was leaving her purse right by the door. I would of hidden it from her but I knew I could just yell at her latter and it'd be just as good. Well now there is a new apartment rule, the door locks by midnight. If you're out then you're staying out. She agreed to it so we'll see how long it takes before she comes pounding on the door at one in the morning wanting back in...ain't gonna happen!
Other then all that my latest worry is that I am no longer able to recive student loans through the college. I am lucky that this summester between my finacial aid and money from Michigan Works that every thing will be paid for with may just a few bucks to spair. I plain on taking out a loan from a bank that does college loans so I won't have to pay it back untill after I gradguate. But this is also a good thing, this year I actually get finacial aid...which means I can get student work. I already checked and food services needs workers. It's perfect! I won't have to deduct student work income out of my s.s. income, so I can actual save up some money for things like car expences, paying back college loans, money for extra bills...and hey, maybe even a little money for some fun!
Lately I have been thinking a lot about what went down between a former friend and me. I wonder if I did things right or if I made a mistake in ending it all. They do say that time will heal all wounds, and I wonder if my wound has finally begun to heal. I'm sure that things couldn't have been any other way, and that even now I still cannot think of trying again. I am a slow healer, I always have been. I have dark spots all over my arms from were I had a scratch heal over, but the skin hasn't fully repaired. It feels the same for my soul. There is still a big dark spot on it. It's healed, I feel like the infection is out, but it's still not back to how it was before. I do believe I am happier now, even though the whole thing still makes me sad. Perhaps it was just one of those things where I had to get hurt to learn my lesson...to follow a new path. I do believe that every now and again you have to shed what was and begin moving into the what will be. For me, I was a nieve friend, now I am more careful with myself and more willing to put myself above others. It feels good, and right, and balanced. I no longer have to depend on my friends or family to provide happiness for me. I have found a way to bring happiness into my life on my own, and that is truely the greatest feeling in the world!