grrrrrrrrrr!
okay, now i am even way more pissed off then before! i totally worte out this whole thing and then i accidentally erased it all! damn it!!
so as i WAS saying is that i hate that bitch tiffany! still! who the fuck does she think she is? hell i dont even know who she is anymore! jt is totally gonna fuck her and dump her and i am going to laugh in her face and say "i told you so bitch!"
i am definitly unmotivated lately! i havent even felt like taking care of myself. i give up on caring how i look. i dont even want to eat, sleep, shower, or go to class. all i want to do is crawl in a hole and die! i dont even think anyone would notice! and you know what, today is my sobriety birthday, ya its been four years and honestly the only reason i am not out getting shit faced right now, is because of the lack of offers! i would if i could! if someone offered i would be ALL over that shit! hell ya!
okay, so God has said that he would always be here for me and that my life is in his hands. well if that is the case, why the fuck am i so unhappy?! when are you coming to get me from this hell hole Lord? huh? i am sick of waiting! i know that your will is not complete and that is why, but cant you at least make life a little more tolerable? do you want people to kill themselves? you are pushing!