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justin never called...
*sigh*
oh well
kelly broke up with chad, so i spent the day chatting and playing starcraft with him. i hope he feels better
worked on jaya's thing a bit. really wishing i had taken the time to learn to paint with acrylics. *sigh*
looks like i'm gonna be doing quite a few drafts of this one before i get it right.
it's funny... i kinda don't wanna go to london
as much of an extrovert as i may want to be, i really am a cancer at heart. i'm actually happy sitting here at home, drawing, listening to music, surfing the web, reading, and just whatever else strikes my fancy. i dunno why. but at the same time, i'm sick and tired of having silly moments with no one there to share them with. or getting dressed up on a whim with no where to go. or having epiphanes and only being able to share them with people over the internet.
maybe i just need to find my own scene
*shrugs*
i really wanna hang out with justin and j. if only cuz it's like they really get what i'm saying. what ever it is i'm saying. they're just so easy to talk to. and, while i'm really exited about england, and i'm really happy i have friends their... i always feel like the odd one out. first of all, they're all toms freinds. i mean, i've been living with him for a year, it's like we're brothers. and you don't wanna share all your friends with your brothers. toms a great guy, i just don't wanna see him EVERY FUCKING DAY. but i wanna hang out and go places and do stuff, too. and with them, it's like they didn't do anything unless EVERYONE was going. *sigh*. i want some gay friends, too. besides j, and a few random people online, i don't think i really know any gay guys.i mean, i'm REALLY not into the whole gay scene. but it'd be nice. i dunno. it'd be nice to have a few more friends i have stuff in common with.
well, it was midsummer on saturday and sunday. celebrated on my own, but i had fun. i painted a sun on my chest, played all sorts of music that had to do with the sun, whatever felt right. whatever was fun. since midsummer was a celebration of the official beginning of summer, i thought i'd make a list of the things i wanna do or accomplish over the summer. this is what i came up with (in no particular order):
go to a rave
go to a big party
have tons of fun
make at least 5 new friends
make at least 3 new GOOD friends
finish reading otherland
finish reading the complete works of neil gaiman (or at least the sandman series)
work on my painting skills
finish some paintings for jaya
get laid (crude, i know, but i'm being honest)
have a summer fling
get inspired
start collecting things to populate my room at eton
learn a little more about a few different religions
work on my arabic skills
work on my meditating (i've gotten really out of practice)
get in some sort of shape
make at least one friend who'd love to go to homelands (and i mean LOVE. for the music, and the atmosphere, and the people, and everything)
make out with a cute guy
do something i've never done before
be a good older brother
go to australia
go to a theme park somewhere and go on a ride that scares the shit out of me
see some good movies
kiss a cute guy in the rain
do something COMPLETELY insane
get hurt
get better
but top on my list is definitly this: have a FUCKIN GOOD TIME
*sigh*
oh well
kelly broke up with chad, so i spent the day chatting and playing starcraft with him. i hope he feels better
worked on jaya's thing a bit. really wishing i had taken the time to learn to paint with acrylics. *sigh*
looks like i'm gonna be doing quite a few drafts of this one before i get it right.
it's funny... i kinda don't wanna go to london
as much of an extrovert as i may want to be, i really am a cancer at heart. i'm actually happy sitting here at home, drawing, listening to music, surfing the web, reading, and just whatever else strikes my fancy. i dunno why. but at the same time, i'm sick and tired of having silly moments with no one there to share them with. or getting dressed up on a whim with no where to go. or having epiphanes and only being able to share them with people over the internet.
maybe i just need to find my own scene
*shrugs*
i really wanna hang out with justin and j. if only cuz it's like they really get what i'm saying. what ever it is i'm saying. they're just so easy to talk to. and, while i'm really exited about england, and i'm really happy i have friends their... i always feel like the odd one out. first of all, they're all toms freinds. i mean, i've been living with him for a year, it's like we're brothers. and you don't wanna share all your friends with your brothers. toms a great guy, i just don't wanna see him EVERY FUCKING DAY. but i wanna hang out and go places and do stuff, too. and with them, it's like they didn't do anything unless EVERYONE was going. *sigh*. i want some gay friends, too. besides j, and a few random people online, i don't think i really know any gay guys.i mean, i'm REALLY not into the whole gay scene. but it'd be nice. i dunno. it'd be nice to have a few more friends i have stuff in common with.
well, it was midsummer on saturday and sunday. celebrated on my own, but i had fun. i painted a sun on my chest, played all sorts of music that had to do with the sun, whatever felt right. whatever was fun. since midsummer was a celebration of the official beginning of summer, i thought i'd make a list of the things i wanna do or accomplish over the summer. this is what i came up with (in no particular order):
go to a rave
go to a big party
have tons of fun
make at least 5 new friends
make at least 3 new GOOD friends
finish reading otherland
finish reading the complete works of neil gaiman (or at least the sandman series)
work on my painting skills
finish some paintings for jaya
get laid (crude, i know, but i'm being honest)
have a summer fling
get inspired
start collecting things to populate my room at eton
learn a little more about a few different religions
work on my arabic skills
work on my meditating (i've gotten really out of practice)
get in some sort of shape
make at least one friend who'd love to go to homelands (and i mean LOVE. for the music, and the atmosphere, and the people, and everything)
make out with a cute guy
do something i've never done before
be a good older brother
go to australia
go to a theme park somewhere and go on a ride that scares the shit out of me
see some good movies
kiss a cute guy in the rain
do something COMPLETELY insane
get hurt
get better
but top on my list is definitly this: have a FUCKIN GOOD TIME