Character Profile for USC application
Assignment: write a one page character profile on someone fictional. Psychology and all.
(Susie tell me what you think)
I am depressed and aimless, lost and confused and I don't have a ground to walk on so I am falling. As I fall I see the meaninglessness of it all, the blue skies and the white clos all turn into cold, numbing gray. For me there is no sky.
I am living in a nightmare and I have nothing to strive for because I am a fat loser who dwells on love's past, high debts, loose men and women who cannot satisfy the hunger which I crave. Day after day of endless routine in a coffee shop job at an elitist, rich town I serve the masses of diamond studded soccer moms, college trust fund kids who order soy for more than its nutritional value and don't look you in the eye, and never tip. For no matter how charming I get I hold nothing for them that is worth it. I am vile, shamefl blue collar scum.
I am the shit in the bathroom which I clean out with Comet every day.
I am the coffee filth on the espresso machine.
I am the tuna fish aroma that comes out of the dishwasher.
If this were a life where I could strive for dignity I would've done better at school. But, now, college degree and all that means nothing. It means nothing for I am a traveller without a destination in a dark road where I can hear things. I can hear them. And they tell me to do things.
The only thing that keeps me alive is the cowardice of not grabbing an instrument of death to end it all. To end the voices, the urges, the need to satisfy this craving.
My mother and father sand by my greatness, but all I hold is contempt for them, for they never helped me when he raped me every weekend. And I turned gay they shunned me. And when I was happy they got divorced.
Without a goal I am nothing and the only thing to do is to let the urge wash over me and control me.
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Now here's the thing. If I turn depression into an interesting character I want it to be really interesting. Sure, most of this stuff is autobiographical (except for the voices) and it's hyper depression (I don't feel THAT bad about Small World).
Feedback?
(Susie tell me what you think)
I am depressed and aimless, lost and confused and I don't have a ground to walk on so I am falling. As I fall I see the meaninglessness of it all, the blue skies and the white clos all turn into cold, numbing gray. For me there is no sky.
I am living in a nightmare and I have nothing to strive for because I am a fat loser who dwells on love's past, high debts, loose men and women who cannot satisfy the hunger which I crave. Day after day of endless routine in a coffee shop job at an elitist, rich town I serve the masses of diamond studded soccer moms, college trust fund kids who order soy for more than its nutritional value and don't look you in the eye, and never tip. For no matter how charming I get I hold nothing for them that is worth it. I am vile, shamefl blue collar scum.
I am the shit in the bathroom which I clean out with Comet every day.
I am the coffee filth on the espresso machine.
I am the tuna fish aroma that comes out of the dishwasher.
If this were a life where I could strive for dignity I would've done better at school. But, now, college degree and all that means nothing. It means nothing for I am a traveller without a destination in a dark road where I can hear things. I can hear them. And they tell me to do things.
The only thing that keeps me alive is the cowardice of not grabbing an instrument of death to end it all. To end the voices, the urges, the need to satisfy this craving.
My mother and father sand by my greatness, but all I hold is contempt for them, for they never helped me when he raped me every weekend. And I turned gay they shunned me. And when I was happy they got divorced.
Without a goal I am nothing and the only thing to do is to let the urge wash over me and control me.
_______________
Now here's the thing. If I turn depression into an interesting character I want it to be really interesting. Sure, most of this stuff is autobiographical (except for the voices) and it's hyper depression (I don't feel THAT bad about Small World).
Feedback?