Another Wave, Another Goodbye

[sapphireleigh]

I’ve come to realize that love is the greatest mystery. Two of my potential dating partners have been demoted to friends. One of them was Jacob. He has a sexual assault history, and while I feel guilty in using that against him, I can’t let it harm any relationship we might have had and it would have. I would be too afraid to be in any room with him; I would fear the physical intimacy with him and in a relationship, I should not have to fear my partner. Like I also told him, I am very idealistic when it comes to the one. I only have one position open for the one and in my mind, he has to be perfect. I have many positions for friendships open, and the requirements are not strict.

I am squinting at the computer screen through my glasses. This is not good. Shit. Another eight hour shift in dispatch tonight and too much technology glare. Gotta shut the computer down after posting this, so goodnight all.