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friday was my last day at West
was kinda sad. Tai was upset; I could tell while talking with him & he kept assuring me that he & Rachel would come visit me.
I love the picture of Rachel & I. It's perfect.
it was strange leaving because it is the first place I ever went and made friends. I've never had any attachments like this before, and I guess that is mostly what kept me there as long as I was.
Yesterday was the 'tool party' for Ken.
His friend Dom threw it for him; this was the first I met the guy. I like him; he's very nice & ever so entertaining.
Afterwards, we went to a bar...
and something went very wrong.
ummm, let's see:
friday night I was really sad about leaving West
so I couldn't sleep til sometime after 6am, meaning I didn't get up until after 11am saturday.
by the time I ordered my 1hour photos, had breakfast, & went to pick them up
I didn't make it to the gym til after 2pm
When I got there the only woman I like that works there showed me the blueprints for the new gym they're building & was trying to sell me packages for like 20mins
so by the time I got home from the gym it was almost 4:30.
I took a shower. I was starving so I ate a few baby carrots w/hummus & a giant apple I couldn't even finish. Then I threw on whatever clothes & dried my hair real fast, wavy. No makeup, no time for that.
Went n' picked up a garbage can, which is the 'tool' I brought for Ken, got home & Jennifer came downstairs soon as I walked in & said ok let's go!
At this point I am feeling all kinds of crazy. I'm sad at leaving everyone at work & nervous about the new job & about whether I can finish school and where will I live and how can I get a new car. I'm still talking to Mike. But it's weird; I guess it's always been weird. I don't know what to do about it.
I'm kinda hung up on Ben and how we had such a connection but never got to see if it meant anything. Emotions are just all over the place.
So yeahh, we go to this bar.
And it's me and Jennifer with Ken, Dom, Andy, Brian, Ryan, & Josh.
We were joking about how we were a bit under dressed because there were all these girls glammed out n' guys dressed to impress just the same.
we were all casual, just chilling
After a few mins I see this girl I knew from West
she walked by and was like lemme introduce you to my boyfriend, so I walk over
and then he made her intro me to his best friend, who is drunk & uhhh well ghetto
She then tells me Ben's dating this girl at West. Who is really nice; her son is cute too.
And when I got to the bar I didn't really want the Amaretto Sour I was drinking, but suddenly I was needing it.
I intended to text Gus to tell him we weren't gonna make the final TCOAT show as soon as that drink left my hand, but I didn't remember until I was already in the middle of my second drink. damn. ok after this one then, cos I'm definitely not drinking anything else.
So the night goes on, and I'm standing in front of Josh & Ryan. (side note: I had been a tiny bit worried about the wedding because of the whole Josh thing. He's still been flirting with me on myspace & texting, but I talked to him last night & I wasn't uncomfortable so that's good.)
We're talking and that ghetto dude comes up and is beyond drunk talking about how I'm hotter than he is but I should talk to him unless I'm hooking up with someone else then that's cool. And he has his hands like allll over my shoulders - this is all a foot in front of Josh & Ryan. I tell the kid that I'm talking to someone right now; he's says well that's rude I say ok sorry. He says he's joking & then walks away after a minute. They ask me what he said & my sister was to my right but was talking with the other guys she steps over & was like whaaaat the hell was that
Two seconds later, this guy that kept smiling at me over Josh's shoulder for the previous ten minutes, walks over & asks me if I'm part Irish.
They start cracking up.
I tell him that I am. He says he's half Irish, half Korean and talks to me for about a minute then walks away.
I go back to my friends and they're enjoying this. I say my theory is that he watched ghetto guy and figured he couldn't do any worse than him; not a hard act to follow so that was his in.
Within the next few minutes Ryan had talked me into a Captain & Ginger, which has become my new drink. That puts me at three, meaning I'm tipsy as all get out now. And this drink is much stronger than the amaretto sours; I don't think I finished it.
Now some Greek guy with hair same as me - long, dark, curly... oh also on his chest as his shirt was unbuttoned like halfway down, started flirting with me too.
Meanwhile ghettoboy was causing drama flicking off my friends & stuff.
Josh was getting all mad n' wanting to throw down or something and Ryan was like look what you started!
but really, I don't get it. I had to be the least attractive chic in that bar - I had literally NO makeup on, not even chapstick. My hair looked pretty crappy and I was wearing a t-shirt over a 3/4 sleeve shirt & loose fitting cargo pants. Shouldn't these dudes be hitting on the girls w/practically no clothing on & hair done, lotsa make up? Obviously, those are the ones trying to attract dudes. Me, I'm just there.
I dunno, maybe I'm just really approachable? I dunno.
So ghetto boy was causing mad drama & finally decided to leave before getting kicked out, and we left shortly after cos Greek guy was still standing behind me and we'd all had about enough of that circus.
So much for being invisible.
although, all that going on was a good thing because it kept pulling me back to the present moment
at a time when it would have otherwise been so easy to be drowned by emotions tied to the past and future.
was kinda sad. Tai was upset; I could tell while talking with him & he kept assuring me that he & Rachel would come visit me.
I love the picture of Rachel & I. It's perfect.
it was strange leaving because it is the first place I ever went and made friends. I've never had any attachments like this before, and I guess that is mostly what kept me there as long as I was.
Yesterday was the 'tool party' for Ken.
His friend Dom threw it for him; this was the first I met the guy. I like him; he's very nice & ever so entertaining.
Afterwards, we went to a bar...
and something went very wrong.
ummm, let's see:
friday night I was really sad about leaving West
so I couldn't sleep til sometime after 6am, meaning I didn't get up until after 11am saturday.
by the time I ordered my 1hour photos, had breakfast, & went to pick them up
I didn't make it to the gym til after 2pm
When I got there the only woman I like that works there showed me the blueprints for the new gym they're building & was trying to sell me packages for like 20mins
so by the time I got home from the gym it was almost 4:30.
I took a shower. I was starving so I ate a few baby carrots w/hummus & a giant apple I couldn't even finish. Then I threw on whatever clothes & dried my hair real fast, wavy. No makeup, no time for that.
Went n' picked up a garbage can, which is the 'tool' I brought for Ken, got home & Jennifer came downstairs soon as I walked in & said ok let's go!
At this point I am feeling all kinds of crazy. I'm sad at leaving everyone at work & nervous about the new job & about whether I can finish school and where will I live and how can I get a new car. I'm still talking to Mike. But it's weird; I guess it's always been weird. I don't know what to do about it.
I'm kinda hung up on Ben and how we had such a connection but never got to see if it meant anything. Emotions are just all over the place.
So yeahh, we go to this bar.
And it's me and Jennifer with Ken, Dom, Andy, Brian, Ryan, & Josh.
We were joking about how we were a bit under dressed because there were all these girls glammed out n' guys dressed to impress just the same.
we were all casual, just chilling
After a few mins I see this girl I knew from West
she walked by and was like lemme introduce you to my boyfriend, so I walk over
and then he made her intro me to his best friend, who is drunk & uhhh well ghetto
She then tells me Ben's dating this girl at West. Who is really nice; her son is cute too.
And when I got to the bar I didn't really want the Amaretto Sour I was drinking, but suddenly I was needing it.
I intended to text Gus to tell him we weren't gonna make the final TCOAT show as soon as that drink left my hand, but I didn't remember until I was already in the middle of my second drink. damn. ok after this one then, cos I'm definitely not drinking anything else.
So the night goes on, and I'm standing in front of Josh & Ryan. (side note: I had been a tiny bit worried about the wedding because of the whole Josh thing. He's still been flirting with me on myspace & texting, but I talked to him last night & I wasn't uncomfortable so that's good.)
We're talking and that ghetto dude comes up and is beyond drunk talking about how I'm hotter than he is but I should talk to him unless I'm hooking up with someone else then that's cool. And he has his hands like allll over my shoulders - this is all a foot in front of Josh & Ryan. I tell the kid that I'm talking to someone right now; he's says well that's rude I say ok sorry. He says he's joking & then walks away after a minute. They ask me what he said & my sister was to my right but was talking with the other guys she steps over & was like whaaaat the hell was that
Two seconds later, this guy that kept smiling at me over Josh's shoulder for the previous ten minutes, walks over & asks me if I'm part Irish.
They start cracking up.
I tell him that I am. He says he's half Irish, half Korean and talks to me for about a minute then walks away.
I go back to my friends and they're enjoying this. I say my theory is that he watched ghetto guy and figured he couldn't do any worse than him; not a hard act to follow so that was his in.
Within the next few minutes Ryan had talked me into a Captain & Ginger, which has become my new drink. That puts me at three, meaning I'm tipsy as all get out now. And this drink is much stronger than the amaretto sours; I don't think I finished it.
Now some Greek guy with hair same as me - long, dark, curly... oh also on his chest as his shirt was unbuttoned like halfway down, started flirting with me too.
Meanwhile ghettoboy was causing drama flicking off my friends & stuff.
Josh was getting all mad n' wanting to throw down or something and Ryan was like look what you started!
but really, I don't get it. I had to be the least attractive chic in that bar - I had literally NO makeup on, not even chapstick. My hair looked pretty crappy and I was wearing a t-shirt over a 3/4 sleeve shirt & loose fitting cargo pants. Shouldn't these dudes be hitting on the girls w/practically no clothing on & hair done, lotsa make up? Obviously, those are the ones trying to attract dudes. Me, I'm just there.
I dunno, maybe I'm just really approachable? I dunno.
So ghetto boy was causing mad drama & finally decided to leave before getting kicked out, and we left shortly after cos Greek guy was still standing behind me and we'd all had about enough of that circus.
So much for being invisible.
although, all that going on was a good thing because it kept pulling me back to the present moment
at a time when it would have otherwise been so easy to be drowned by emotions tied to the past and future.