Being Myself

[sapphic_garnet]

Okay, I always try to eschew being miserable on livejournal coz I don't know the boundary between emo and emotion.  So I guess here it goes.  Me venting.

Well, what can I say?  I don't know how obvious it is, but I guess it will be now:
I don't understand people.

As in I don't understand why they do and say things and sometimes I think that there's

Comments

[devil_in_heaven]

:) i'm always impressed when i see you following through with some idea i've given you and mixing it with your own -- it's very charming chris and i'm charmed :P you're so amazingly clever and perceptive, you'll see after all why i've said some of the things i have about the shape of things to come for you... basically the overall point of every word i've said is that if you do the hard stuff now, later's a breeze. with every moment the universe reveals itself in all its complexity to you, all you have to do is notice. there are plenty of ppl out in the world who are 40 and still fighting off ideas of parental control etc. still trying to find that magic first moment in whichever way they expect it to appear: even as ridiculous as that sounds on a second read.

not understanding ppl is the royal road to gaining the fullest appreciation of ppl you can possibly get, there will be no automatic for you and you'll eventually find that this puts you in the most sought after place of all. while other ppl fight off long-dead mother or the word "no" or oedipus or whatever, you'll be sunning yourself with moondew on the shores of a cosmic collision having tea with proust in a parallel universe on the underspin of an electron as it winds its way through the mind of a newborn. and all this while brushing your teeth getting ready for a gig.

AVE mon ami, my heart and soul is adjacent to yours xxxxxxx you're my very own prime number :)