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I have a thousand thoughts careening through my head, and yet nothing at all to say that hasn't been said a million times before. The debate now begins as to whether I should say them or not.
I hate skinny people who diet. Do they not understand how lucky that have it? I want to grab them and shake them and scream at them for sanity's sake. "YOU CAN EAT WHATEVER YOU WANT TO AND IT ISN'T FAIR!" because I can't. I no longer have that simple, yet so delightful privelidge of buying a candy bar and eating it, or ordering fries instead of a salad, or having some cake after I eat. So don't let me ever hear any of you bitching about dieting again, because you honestly have no idea how lucky you are.
We tend to take everything for granted, until it's gone, don't we? When I was thin, I didn't know I was thin. To me, I was just as big as I am now, even though I was in a size 8 instead of 18. If I could go back in time, I'd kick my own ass for not enjoying it while I had it. I may be content now, but I don't think I'll ever be able to let this weight thing go.
Why is everyone so lonely? Why do girls feel this desperate need for a boy to make everything better? Simple. They do. No one is complete until they find their counterpart. But I'm not talking about that. I'm talking about for self-esteem. Why does being taken appeal so and add so much self esteem? It shouldn't, really. You're no better with a boyfriend who doesn't share your soul than on your own. And you can't rush finding that person, either. It happens when you're ready and when you're mature enough to handle it. Don't waste the time before you find him waiting on him and pining over him. Make yourself useful in preparing yourself for him. Find yourself. After all, how can you be found if you haven't even found you yet?
Patience sucks, doesn't it?
I hate skinny people who diet. Do they not understand how lucky that have it? I want to grab them and shake them and scream at them for sanity's sake. "YOU CAN EAT WHATEVER YOU WANT TO AND IT ISN'T FAIR!" because I can't. I no longer have that simple, yet so delightful privelidge of buying a candy bar and eating it, or ordering fries instead of a salad, or having some cake after I eat. So don't let me ever hear any of you bitching about dieting again, because you honestly have no idea how lucky you are.
We tend to take everything for granted, until it's gone, don't we? When I was thin, I didn't know I was thin. To me, I was just as big as I am now, even though I was in a size 8 instead of 18. If I could go back in time, I'd kick my own ass for not enjoying it while I had it. I may be content now, but I don't think I'll ever be able to let this weight thing go.
Why is everyone so lonely? Why do girls feel this desperate need for a boy to make everything better? Simple. They do. No one is complete until they find their counterpart. But I'm not talking about that. I'm talking about for self-esteem. Why does being taken appeal so and add so much self esteem? It shouldn't, really. You're no better with a boyfriend who doesn't share your soul than on your own. And you can't rush finding that person, either. It happens when you're ready and when you're mature enough to handle it. Don't waste the time before you find him waiting on him and pining over him. Make yourself useful in preparing yourself for him. Find yourself. After all, how can you be found if you haven't even found you yet?
Patience sucks, doesn't it?