Teach me baby, one more time.
I am amazed at how things continue to get better and better everyday. I forgot what it felt like to be happy. To just be in a good mood for no reason.
I had a party last night, and I had a bit too much to drink... I spent all day sleeping and now it's almost 2 a.m. and I can't sleep. This is always when LiveJournal looks the most appealing. My 'boy' came over tonight and cooked me dinner. Don't get me wrong, I am very happy at this point in my life, but that doesn't mean I can't be a bit confused. I really do not want to 'date' anyone right now. However, we've been spending a lot of time together, and he keeps saying things that are throwing me off a bit. This was originally a 'friends with benefits' deal, but is it normal for him to come over and cook me dinner? Or spend the night three or four nights out of the week with me? I don't know how this works. The adult thing to do would be to have a conversation about it, but I'm terrified of messing up a good thing by overthinking it. And freaking him out. More than anything, I'm curious as to what he's thinking and feeling. Of course he's one of those 'reserved' people who don't like to discuss their emotions. And now I'm rambling like I hate to do.
As I am admiring him, I have attracted an admirer myself. My best friend took me to a party at her ex-boyfriend's house (their relationship is awfully strange) and introduced me to the ex's younger brother. He's a cute guy, a bit younger than me... but I think I misled him on accident. He came to my house a few nights later for my party, and stayed the night. He asked me out to lunch the next day and I went I guess for the fun of it... but word on the street is that I am the coolest girl he's ever met and he is "in love with my personality." He came to my party last night, and I felt kind of horrible because Boy #1 was there as well... I will have to set things straight with him before I unintentionally mess something up.
Well, I suppose most importantly is that I love this giddy feeling, and I love being here. The scenery is so much more satisfying, and I can actually see stars at night again.
And just because I can, I'm going to load this entry down with some pertinent lyrics.
It's been such a long time since anybody's touched me the way that you touch me so if I stutter and I feel so so so unsexy so maybe I'll just keep my mouth shut at least until you kiss me so kiss me again
I had a party last night, and I had a bit too much to drink... I spent all day sleeping and now it's almost 2 a.m. and I can't sleep. This is always when LiveJournal looks the most appealing. My 'boy' came over tonight and cooked me dinner. Don't get me wrong, I am very happy at this point in my life, but that doesn't mean I can't be a bit confused. I really do not want to 'date' anyone right now. However, we've been spending a lot of time together, and he keeps saying things that are throwing me off a bit. This was originally a 'friends with benefits' deal, but is it normal for him to come over and cook me dinner? Or spend the night three or four nights out of the week with me? I don't know how this works. The adult thing to do would be to have a conversation about it, but I'm terrified of messing up a good thing by overthinking it. And freaking him out. More than anything, I'm curious as to what he's thinking and feeling. Of course he's one of those 'reserved' people who don't like to discuss their emotions. And now I'm rambling like I hate to do.
As I am admiring him, I have attracted an admirer myself. My best friend took me to a party at her ex-boyfriend's house (their relationship is awfully strange) and introduced me to the ex's younger brother. He's a cute guy, a bit younger than me... but I think I misled him on accident. He came to my house a few nights later for my party, and stayed the night. He asked me out to lunch the next day and I went I guess for the fun of it... but word on the street is that I am the coolest girl he's ever met and he is "in love with my personality." He came to my party last night, and I felt kind of horrible because Boy #1 was there as well... I will have to set things straight with him before I unintentionally mess something up.
Well, I suppose most importantly is that I love this giddy feeling, and I love being here. The scenery is so much more satisfying, and I can actually see stars at night again.
And just because I can, I'm going to load this entry down with some pertinent lyrics.
It's been such a long time since anybody's touched me the way that you touch me so if I stutter and I feel so so so unsexy so maybe I'll just keep my mouth shut at least until you kiss me so kiss me again