It's official I'm l-o-s-t
So I've been at work since three. The heavens shined on us today and we got internet for the day, though I don't know how long it will last. I sort of got away for a couple hours during which I lurked till I could lurk no more, and now it's just me till 11. My mother decided that calling me and telling me I'm dumb would be a good idea and that such a conversation would ceratinly lead to a boost of my self-confidence and over-all feeling about myself. Isn't she just a sweatheart? Really. Warms me from the inside. So that basically killed everything. My inability to jut relax and enjoy whatever I'm doing because I'm too concerened with what will happen later is really taking a toll on me. i feel like I'm on a merry go round of feeling stagnant, insecure and unaccomplished.
It's also that time of the year when everything about me screams for romance, intimacy, secruity in a relationship, the need to share and so forth. What will make me happy? What will make me successful and take me to the next level of existance?
I feel wasted. I can't get a strong enough grasp on vital little things, which disables me from attaining stability and a strong enough platform to achieve further from.
It's also that time of the year when everything about me screams for romance, intimacy, secruity in a relationship, the need to share and so forth. What will make me happy? What will make me successful and take me to the next level of existance?
I feel wasted. I can't get a strong enough grasp on vital little things, which disables me from attaining stability and a strong enough platform to achieve further from.