lady lights a cigarette
i figured out why i like white people. why my general romantic interests lie in tall, skinny, white boys. why all my friends are white or fully-americanized asian. and i cringe thinking of myself as a totally americanized, wannabe-white chinese girl... but seriously now, white people are cool. people from other ethnic backgrounds... not so much.
ha. this perhaps needs some context so i don't sound like a disillusioned white supremist. part of this stems from the fact that i live in north america... i like freedom, and individuality, and randomness. i like people with beautifully unique personalities. i like open-minded people. people who live their lives, take chances, and have a good time doing it all while not taking this whole living bit too, too seriously. people with manners, etiquette, and a sense of the importance of self-presentation.
i DON'T like religious people. blandly quiet, boring, stoic people. i don't like it when people are cheap, and judgemental, and innocent to a fault. i don't like people scared to experience life, and realize there's something much more sporadic and quotidien and potentially exciting about it. and so far... in this experience of being forced to be with minorities of all kinds and genders... that's more or less how it is.
i hate stating this... but i am bored with these people. it has been one month exactly, and well, i don't care for them much at all. boring, awkward, geeky in a bad way science people they are... who judge me on what i do and how i feel... who act like they "know best".
ultimately, due to how america is set up and divided up, i suppose it's hard for all minorities to develop separate identities and establish themselves... in all situations you see them, clumped up together in and inevitable, impenetrable mass. retaining the comfort of their own kind.
i think my thinking is different and experiences unique because i grew up in canada. where i was frequently the only asian person and never really realized it. and now that i'm all grown i just want to meet lovely people who can contribute random excellence of my life and my person.
ffffffffffuck. this heineken is dulling. i just want to get out of here. or live in the lab. i want real people, good friends, a 24/7 mode of transportation, a joint, pointy heels, more time, more life...
ha. this perhaps needs some context so i don't sound like a disillusioned white supremist. part of this stems from the fact that i live in north america... i like freedom, and individuality, and randomness. i like people with beautifully unique personalities. i like open-minded people. people who live their lives, take chances, and have a good time doing it all while not taking this whole living bit too, too seriously. people with manners, etiquette, and a sense of the importance of self-presentation.
i DON'T like religious people. blandly quiet, boring, stoic people. i don't like it when people are cheap, and judgemental, and innocent to a fault. i don't like people scared to experience life, and realize there's something much more sporadic and quotidien and potentially exciting about it. and so far... in this experience of being forced to be with minorities of all kinds and genders... that's more or less how it is.
i hate stating this... but i am bored with these people. it has been one month exactly, and well, i don't care for them much at all. boring, awkward, geeky in a bad way science people they are... who judge me on what i do and how i feel... who act like they "know best".
ultimately, due to how america is set up and divided up, i suppose it's hard for all minorities to develop separate identities and establish themselves... in all situations you see them, clumped up together in and inevitable, impenetrable mass. retaining the comfort of their own kind.
i think my thinking is different and experiences unique because i grew up in canada. where i was frequently the only asian person and never really realized it. and now that i'm all grown i just want to meet lovely people who can contribute random excellence of my life and my person.
ffffffffffuck. this heineken is dulling. i just want to get out of here. or live in the lab. i want real people, good friends, a 24/7 mode of transportation, a joint, pointy heels, more time, more life...