i never loved nobody fully... always one foot on the ground.
i have decided to be in worcester for the summer. umass worcester medical school has given me a research fellowship that will pay $4000 from june to august plus room, and travel expenses. so back to the east... since spring break, i have definitely decided that i prefer the west. well, i would like to see more of nyc. but the west... stark beaches, grandiose mountains, and the desert. love at first sight. inexplicable addictions...
but. i have a good 3 weeks before i start this fellowship in which time i will be able to do/go/enjoy whatever the hell i want. the ideas are already mounting greedily...
tonight i came to realize that i pick all the wrong guys. yeah... i'm one of "those" girls... i get dangerously attached to guys who couldn't care less that i'm alive. lovely, ain't it... and i don't try. really. it's not like i explicitly go for assholes. i am thinking part of it is because i am attracted to creative, laid-back types who never really care about that much anyway. guys DO like me... just never the ones i like back. i don't like most people... but when i do (3 times in two years) it's very real to me. it would be easier if i could learn to be completely -unattached-
boys make me sad.
my family is quite insane... my father got a job in woodland hills so he'll be heading west soon and i'll be living with him next year. my mother, being gently laid off will probably go live with him for a month or two, while i'll be back at home babysitting cat and dog, manning the house, drinking the booze, driving the lexus. of course not in that order. it amuses me that we're switching coasts...
now... i am looking towards the end of this semester. i think i'll take a limo to the airport.
but. i have a good 3 weeks before i start this fellowship in which time i will be able to do/go/enjoy whatever the hell i want. the ideas are already mounting greedily...
tonight i came to realize that i pick all the wrong guys. yeah... i'm one of "those" girls... i get dangerously attached to guys who couldn't care less that i'm alive. lovely, ain't it... and i don't try. really. it's not like i explicitly go for assholes. i am thinking part of it is because i am attracted to creative, laid-back types who never really care about that much anyway. guys DO like me... just never the ones i like back. i don't like most people... but when i do (3 times in two years) it's very real to me. it would be easier if i could learn to be completely -unattached-
boys make me sad.
my family is quite insane... my father got a job in woodland hills so he'll be heading west soon and i'll be living with him next year. my mother, being gently laid off will probably go live with him for a month or two, while i'll be back at home babysitting cat and dog, manning the house, drinking the booze, driving the lexus. of course not in that order. it amuses me that we're switching coasts...
now... i am looking towards the end of this semester. i think i'll take a limo to the airport.