work and more work
what am i doing??!?! i really have no idea. i dont even know what i want to do anymore.
i work everyday. and on some days i go to work after work. and its still apparently not enough for my dad who wants me to do more. he wants me to quit my current job to work at the cafe full time or work at sushi 85 more hours. i need to make more money, find a better paying job that will pay for the house that i live in. this fucking house...the only good thing about it is that he doesnt live here. otherwise to hell with it. i'd trade it for an apt if it meant he would get off my back about making more money to pay off mortgages.
but seriously. what am i doing? what do i want to do? nothing seems interesting anymore.
been working at sushi 85 and one of the guys there, i guess hes a manager, told me that i look unmotivated. unlike people who live outside of the US who have dreams of pursuing a better life in america, i have no dreams of pursuing anything. he also said that i look like the type who would get easily tricked or persuaded to do something i didnt want to do. and that it sucks that i live a life controlled by my dad.
at the cafe, i got to see a friend from the private art lessons i used to take. he went to a small town in italy for a couple months and just painted the whole time. he said it was amazing...indescribable. made me want to get painting or drawing again.
work has been getting better. at least i am more familiar with my responsibilities and how to do them. but its still tiring and not what i want to do. not that i know what i want to do...only that this is not it.
i dunno...i need to figure it out. and fast.
i work everyday. and on some days i go to work after work. and its still apparently not enough for my dad who wants me to do more. he wants me to quit my current job to work at the cafe full time or work at sushi 85 more hours. i need to make more money, find a better paying job that will pay for the house that i live in. this fucking house...the only good thing about it is that he doesnt live here. otherwise to hell with it. i'd trade it for an apt if it meant he would get off my back about making more money to pay off mortgages.
but seriously. what am i doing? what do i want to do? nothing seems interesting anymore.
been working at sushi 85 and one of the guys there, i guess hes a manager, told me that i look unmotivated. unlike people who live outside of the US who have dreams of pursuing a better life in america, i have no dreams of pursuing anything. he also said that i look like the type who would get easily tricked or persuaded to do something i didnt want to do. and that it sucks that i live a life controlled by my dad.
at the cafe, i got to see a friend from the private art lessons i used to take. he went to a small town in italy for a couple months and just painted the whole time. he said it was amazing...indescribable. made me want to get painting or drawing again.
work has been getting better. at least i am more familiar with my responsibilities and how to do them. but its still tiring and not what i want to do. not that i know what i want to do...only that this is not it.
i dunno...i need to figure it out. and fast.