group mentality

[sanosuke77]

I’ve never felt a part of a group. When I was young, I tried to, hell, I still try to now in some aspects of my life. The problem is that I can’t understand it. I’m defective in that way. I lack that ‘thing’ that links people together. When it comes to socialization, there’s a point in which I lack the ability to fit in. I am community-deficient.

Comments

[chinkerfly]

Sometimes your entries make me wish I could be sitting silently beside you facing the ocean, both of us with our own thoughts, but with that vague comfort of knowing that there is someone close at hand whose thoughts run parallel.

But you have your ocean and I'll have mine.

[sanosuke77]

thanks for your thoughtful message. i think you're the only one who takes the time to read through all my rants! :)

[chinkerfly]

I'm sure others are reading too, but if they are anything like me, sometimes words just fail to convey the feelings that are conjured up by reading your posts. Like any comment at all would detract from the fullness of expression you already achieved in the post itself.

I'm trying to make more of an effort though to respond so it's less like stalking. :)

[sanosuke77]

hey,

haha. I guess I didn't mean that no body reads. I've just noticed that there are a lot more responses from posts that are more 'entertaining' -for obvious reasons. I was asked to participate in writing in a community-based blog, but learned that I couldn't because I'm not a writer. In other words, my posts are usually founded on an emotional basis, as a release for the things eating me inside. Pure emo, I guess you can say. In any case, I appreciate your comments in that it vindicates my purpose and perspective when it comes to dealing with the challenges of everyday life. :)