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So, in spite of the fact that I've almost cried not once but four times today... it was actually a pretty good day.
You know my Very Desperate Post from yesterday? Well, I saw him today, for a few seconds. It was awkward, but not awkward in a way that was abjectly weird or unfortunate. It was more like the gawky, almost-sweet awkward kind of awkwardness.
Of course, within seconds of walking away from him, I started shaking uncontrollably and almost-sobbing. In fact, my very kind team mate was all, "Are you okay? It's okay-- I have chocolate!"
"I'm good," I said in a tone that was somewhere between appreciative, self-deprecating, and sobbish.
Before today, I was kind of lukewarm about her-- probably because we're both very takecharge, leader-y types who care about getting a good grade on group projects. But though I rarely accept offered food, I always feel inordinately grateful towards and trusting of people that offer. Weird, I know.
So, shakiness and teariness aside, today was good. The kind of day that makes you excited about future days, which is a feeling that's rare nowadays and all too welcome for it.
You know my Very Desperate Post from yesterday? Well, I saw him today, for a few seconds. It was awkward, but not awkward in a way that was abjectly weird or unfortunate. It was more like the gawky, almost-sweet awkward kind of awkwardness.
Of course, within seconds of walking away from him, I started shaking uncontrollably and almost-sobbing. In fact, my very kind team mate was all, "Are you okay? It's okay-- I have chocolate!"
"I'm good," I said in a tone that was somewhere between appreciative, self-deprecating, and sobbish.
Before today, I was kind of lukewarm about her-- probably because we're both very takecharge, leader-y types who care about getting a good grade on group projects. But though I rarely accept offered food, I always feel inordinately grateful towards and trusting of people that offer. Weird, I know.
So, shakiness and teariness aside, today was good. The kind of day that makes you excited about future days, which is a feeling that's rare nowadays and all too welcome for it.