WTF

[sanjiromorigami]

Ok guys this is a long one, and as with all of them it will be uneditted so forgive my spelling ahead of time. first off, what am i doing with my life, right now i have no real job( i work for vivindi but it is sparce work at best) i have no real home(sleeping on a friends couch and eating his famillies food does not constatute a house), i have no

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[angelundercanti]

Sanjiro-san.. don't worry i wont let anything bad happen to you! a goal in life isn't absolutely necessary, but it would be a nice thing to have.. you have allot of time to think about things like that so don't cut yourself to ribbons and stress ok? it's more important right now we get a steady source of income and eventually a better place to stay. then at some point when we have enough $ and a good plan we can go to japan!

i've been thinking about allot of the same things lately so i cant say that your whining or complaining.. even if i hadn't put any thought into such i still would never say that!

also.. you talked about what people would say after your gone.. if you go and leave i'll find you! you already said a little while ago that you wouldn't...

in buddhism.. the goal is to reach enlightenment through meditation isn't it? and really enlightenment is to know the meaning of life which is allot like what you were thinking of so i don't think your so far off..

i really can't be happy with my life right now.. and i may never be.. but i am doing the best i can and I'm trying.. there are allot of factors involved and it probably won't ever be easy for me but i still have hope.. it's very important not to give up or become too depressed.. but i have thought of giving up allot.. altho you have gone further on this path than i have and taken many roads it doesn't mean there aren't allot of good places left to travel too and allot of paths to take even if you do get lost allot! it's a variation of a quote i have somewhere.. i think right now both of us are a little lost.. it's always good to ask for directions.. if we make a plan it can be like a map but we need to figure out where we are right now first.. maybe I'm in a different place from you but we cant really be that far apart.. this is the largest metaphor i've used in a long time but it works well doesn't it?

ano.. there are allot of things still i want to say but this is getting really long and some of them might get off topic.. not that they haven't already.... i seem to have this horrible habit of going into vast amounts of detail? if you talk about them in another journal i'll be sure to leave more comments..

i love you so much and if anything is bothering you i can beat it to a bloody pulp and even better.. for christmas I'm asking santa for a tazer! a big one! so now i can shock the hell out of anything that so much as looks at you funny! wont it be fun?
of topic again..
~Annie