Fear
Sanitarium
Metallica
Welcome to where time stands still
No one leaves and no one will
Moon is full, never seems to change
Just labeled mentally deranged
Dream the same thing every night
I see our freedom in my sight
No locked doors, no windows barred
No things to make my brain seem scarred
Sleep, my friend, and you will see
That dream is my reality
They keep me locked up in this cage
Can't they see it's why my brain says “rage”
Sanitarium, leave me be
Sanitarium, leave me alone
Build my fear of what's out there
Cannot breathe the open air
Whisper things into my brain
Assuring me that I'm insane
They think our heads are in their hands
But violent use brings violent plans
Keep him tied, it makes him well
He's getting better, can't you tell?
No more can they keep us in
Listen, damn it, we will win
They see it right, they see it well
But they think this saves us from our hell
Sanitarium, leave me be
Sanitarium, leave me alone
Sanitarium
Fear of living on
Natives getting restless now
Mutiny in the air
Got some death to do
Mirror stares back hard
kill is such a friendly word
seems the only way
for reaching out again
1am and I am here posting again, another night where sleep eludes me, my aches and pains are keeping me up.
I have come to the conclusion that in order to be rid of the aches I have to get fit, I have to exercise, I have to get of my fat lazy ass and do something that doesn't involve staying inside on my fat lazy ass usually in front of the computer. All good intentions crash and burn, my guess is this one is no different, I have always been fat and lazy, I can't see that changing any time soon no matter how much I want it too. The simple fact is I don't want it enough, the motivation is not there, its a sad realization but probably true.
So I sit here, 1am, knowing I need sleep but also knowing it will not come, well not yet anyway, in an hour or so maybe, we will have to see.
We had international day at work and we won the decorating competition, we were Egypt, complete with a mummy and belly dancing, the others never stood a chance. For some reason I really get into the competitions at work, its very sad really, I got so disappointed when my team lost the last one and this one kinda made up for it but not really. I am a firm believer you can never regain what you lose, for example.
I have $10
I lose $10
I find $10
I break even, but if I had never lost the $10 I would be ahead by $10, my logic is sound, don't even try to disagree with me.
Geek Girl took some pics of the pods I think and she has plans to post them on her blog, I don't know how to link to her blog and I can't be assed looking right now so just click the "Axon" link that will take you there, they aren't up yet. I gave her the evils when she said she was going to post a pic of me, but I don't really care, it is just instinct to frown upon such decisions even though the reason it became instinct has long since become obsolete. I used to be scared of anyone getting too close, now I welcome it, I need more friends. This onion has removed some layers to make it easier for people to "work their way in" but I don't think people realize the tough layers have been removed, maybe I need to advertise, maybe I need to go on trademe and auction off friendships, might make some money in the deal.
I haven't even started feeling sleepy, its going to be a long night...
We had a Telstra rep come to our door tonight, the little fuck stood there and lied to me about every question I asked, I know he lied because I had looked into this only a few weeks ago myself and when I look into something I leave no stone unturned, I asked everything, and everything he was telling me was a direct contradiction to what I was told previously. I don't care thou, I know the truth behind it and exactally what to expect, I had already decided it was a good deal but we are not willing to pay a installation fee at someone elses house, perhaps when we get our own but not while we are renting. I am willing to do almost anything to ditch the satan-spawn that is Telecom.
When I was a teenager, thats going back about 15 years, 200k for a house was a lot and it got you a lot, these days you can't get a decent house for under 300k and even that is really entry level for a standard family. How do they expect people to afford that, its a huge amount of money. Still it doesn't matter how much they become, We are going to buy a house, we are going to have that control rather than a landlord having the control. Renting would be so much better if we could do whatever the hell we wanted.
Strange things tend to float to the surface at this time of night, especially when you should be asleep, your tired, but for whatever reason you can't. I started thinking about fear. I am afraid of many many things and I am sure most people are if they are honest with themselves.
I fear being alone in the crowd...
Your turn.
PotD
QotD
I'm never going to accomplish anything; that's perfectly clear to me. I'm never going to be famous. My name will never be writ large on the roster of Those Who Do Things. I don't do anything. Not one single thing. I used to bite my nails, but I don't even do that any more.
Dorothy Rothschild
This is my field
Hear me scream
Metallica
Welcome to where time stands still
No one leaves and no one will
Moon is full, never seems to change
Just labeled mentally deranged
Dream the same thing every night
I see our freedom in my sight
No locked doors, no windows barred
No things to make my brain seem scarred
Sleep, my friend, and you will see
That dream is my reality
They keep me locked up in this cage
Can't they see it's why my brain says “rage”
Sanitarium, leave me be
Sanitarium, leave me alone
Build my fear of what's out there
Cannot breathe the open air
Whisper things into my brain
Assuring me that I'm insane
They think our heads are in their hands
But violent use brings violent plans
Keep him tied, it makes him well
He's getting better, can't you tell?
No more can they keep us in
Listen, damn it, we will win
They see it right, they see it well
But they think this saves us from our hell
Sanitarium, leave me be
Sanitarium, leave me alone
Sanitarium
Fear of living on
Natives getting restless now
Mutiny in the air
Got some death to do
Mirror stares back hard
kill is such a friendly word
seems the only way
for reaching out again
1am and I am here posting again, another night where sleep eludes me, my aches and pains are keeping me up.
I have come to the conclusion that in order to be rid of the aches I have to get fit, I have to exercise, I have to get of my fat lazy ass and do something that doesn't involve staying inside on my fat lazy ass usually in front of the computer. All good intentions crash and burn, my guess is this one is no different, I have always been fat and lazy, I can't see that changing any time soon no matter how much I want it too. The simple fact is I don't want it enough, the motivation is not there, its a sad realization but probably true.
So I sit here, 1am, knowing I need sleep but also knowing it will not come, well not yet anyway, in an hour or so maybe, we will have to see.
We had international day at work and we won the decorating competition, we were Egypt, complete with a mummy and belly dancing, the others never stood a chance. For some reason I really get into the competitions at work, its very sad really, I got so disappointed when my team lost the last one and this one kinda made up for it but not really. I am a firm believer you can never regain what you lose, for example.
I have $10
I lose $10
I find $10
I break even, but if I had never lost the $10 I would be ahead by $10, my logic is sound, don't even try to disagree with me.
Geek Girl took some pics of the pods I think and she has plans to post them on her blog, I don't know how to link to her blog and I can't be assed looking right now so just click the "Axon" link that will take you there, they aren't up yet. I gave her the evils when she said she was going to post a pic of me, but I don't really care, it is just instinct to frown upon such decisions even though the reason it became instinct has long since become obsolete. I used to be scared of anyone getting too close, now I welcome it, I need more friends. This onion has removed some layers to make it easier for people to "work their way in" but I don't think people realize the tough layers have been removed, maybe I need to advertise, maybe I need to go on trademe and auction off friendships, might make some money in the deal.
I haven't even started feeling sleepy, its going to be a long night...
We had a Telstra rep come to our door tonight, the little fuck stood there and lied to me about every question I asked, I know he lied because I had looked into this only a few weeks ago myself and when I look into something I leave no stone unturned, I asked everything, and everything he was telling me was a direct contradiction to what I was told previously. I don't care thou, I know the truth behind it and exactally what to expect, I had already decided it was a good deal but we are not willing to pay a installation fee at someone elses house, perhaps when we get our own but not while we are renting. I am willing to do almost anything to ditch the satan-spawn that is Telecom.
When I was a teenager, thats going back about 15 years, 200k for a house was a lot and it got you a lot, these days you can't get a decent house for under 300k and even that is really entry level for a standard family. How do they expect people to afford that, its a huge amount of money. Still it doesn't matter how much they become, We are going to buy a house, we are going to have that control rather than a landlord having the control. Renting would be so much better if we could do whatever the hell we wanted.
Strange things tend to float to the surface at this time of night, especially when you should be asleep, your tired, but for whatever reason you can't. I started thinking about fear. I am afraid of many many things and I am sure most people are if they are honest with themselves.
I fear being alone in the crowd...
Your turn.
PotD
QotD
I'm never going to accomplish anything; that's perfectly clear to me. I'm never going to be famous. My name will never be writ large on the roster of Those Who Do Things. I don't do anything. Not one single thing. I used to bite my nails, but I don't even do that any more.
Dorothy Rothschild
This is my field
Hear me scream