Apply the leeches
I am sick of being sick
This year and parts of last year I have been sicker than I have been for 8 years before. 8 Years without seeing a doctor and right now its one fucking thing after the other.
Whats more, not only am I getting sick, I am getting the worst of it, if a flu lasts 2 days or 2 weeks, I get it for 2 weeks. I have had stomach upsets that have taken me off work for a week, its getting ridiculous. Costing me money and I am sure that sooner or later my boss is going to pull me aside and ask whats going on, and I just don't have an answer to that.
I seem to have a lot of trouble on Mondays too, fucked if I know why. I am fine till Sunday night then I start to feel like shit and by the morning I couldn't get to work even if I wanted too, and when I am in that state work is the last thing I am thinking about.
I am getting more migraines too, again, I have no clue as to whats causing this. I went for bloodtests and there are no imbalances, no deficiencies, and no problems with any of it that have shown up so I am still in the dark. I seem to be quite moody lately also....
I am starting to wonder if the cause of all this is not physical at all. I have had my share from the other side of things, depression, anxiety, phobias etc, I mean in this fucked up world, at this fucked up time who the hell hasn't.. but none of them have had a physical extension like I am experiencing now, maybe I never beat those things after all, perhaps what I am going through now is the next stage of those disorders. meh, fucked if I know.....
So another day at home and another days pay lost, fucking migraine this time, will need to get to sleep early tonight so I can sleep off the affects of it, migraines tend to drain you physically as well as mentally so you need all the sleep you can get after experiencing one.
Someone else I know has just started a account here, welcome minaith, looking forward to your first post. I am starting to seriously wonder if more people I know sign up here will that affect what I decide to write about or how deeply I delve into my craziness. The power of these entries comes from their anonymity, how will I feel should it become widely known who sangius is. I can't answer that right now, however I suspect it won't make much difference, I have never avoided direct questions and honest reflection, I don't think I am going to start now, of course, I could be wrong.
I was in town the other day with MF and he showed me a shop I hadn't noticed before. We went into the shop and had a look around, some great stuff in there. I saw a item that I think a certain friend would really like so I am going to head back there and buy it.
Now I have missed my friends last birthday, and its too early for a christmas present but waiting for the next of each would be punishment for me and that I cannot endure. For me its not a problem to give or accept gifts at any time for any reason but some people have a problem with it so I am going to leave the choice up too her.
So Ms Uber Geek Girl, do you want to work for your gift or can you accept it as it is?
PotD
QotD
An occasional lucky guess as to what makes a wife tick is the best a man can hope for, Even then, no sooner has he learned how to cope with the tick than she tocks.
Frederick Ogden Nash
This is my field
Hear me scream
This year and parts of last year I have been sicker than I have been for 8 years before. 8 Years without seeing a doctor and right now its one fucking thing after the other.
Whats more, not only am I getting sick, I am getting the worst of it, if a flu lasts 2 days or 2 weeks, I get it for 2 weeks. I have had stomach upsets that have taken me off work for a week, its getting ridiculous. Costing me money and I am sure that sooner or later my boss is going to pull me aside and ask whats going on, and I just don't have an answer to that.
I seem to have a lot of trouble on Mondays too, fucked if I know why. I am fine till Sunday night then I start to feel like shit and by the morning I couldn't get to work even if I wanted too, and when I am in that state work is the last thing I am thinking about.
I am getting more migraines too, again, I have no clue as to whats causing this. I went for bloodtests and there are no imbalances, no deficiencies, and no problems with any of it that have shown up so I am still in the dark. I seem to be quite moody lately also....
I am starting to wonder if the cause of all this is not physical at all. I have had my share from the other side of things, depression, anxiety, phobias etc, I mean in this fucked up world, at this fucked up time who the hell hasn't.. but none of them have had a physical extension like I am experiencing now, maybe I never beat those things after all, perhaps what I am going through now is the next stage of those disorders. meh, fucked if I know.....
So another day at home and another days pay lost, fucking migraine this time, will need to get to sleep early tonight so I can sleep off the affects of it, migraines tend to drain you physically as well as mentally so you need all the sleep you can get after experiencing one.
Someone else I know has just started a account here, welcome minaith, looking forward to your first post. I am starting to seriously wonder if more people I know sign up here will that affect what I decide to write about or how deeply I delve into my craziness. The power of these entries comes from their anonymity, how will I feel should it become widely known who sangius is. I can't answer that right now, however I suspect it won't make much difference, I have never avoided direct questions and honest reflection, I don't think I am going to start now, of course, I could be wrong.
I was in town the other day with MF and he showed me a shop I hadn't noticed before. We went into the shop and had a look around, some great stuff in there. I saw a item that I think a certain friend would really like so I am going to head back there and buy it.
Now I have missed my friends last birthday, and its too early for a christmas present but waiting for the next of each would be punishment for me and that I cannot endure. For me its not a problem to give or accept gifts at any time for any reason but some people have a problem with it so I am going to leave the choice up too her.
So Ms Uber Geek Girl, do you want to work for your gift or can you accept it as it is?
PotD
QotD
An occasional lucky guess as to what makes a wife tick is the best a man can hope for, Even then, no sooner has he learned how to cope with the tick than she tocks.
Frederick Ogden Nash
This is my field
Hear me scream