The beginning of this chapter is so bittersweet. Jared’s memories of the weekend spent with Jensen, cuddled up close to each other watching the miniseries, brunch together, and then looking at Jared’s family photos. It’s a shame about Jensen’s family, although I can understand that painful memories are sometimes hard to deal with and I’ve known a few people who’ve gotten rid of photos when a break-up happens. Also very sad that Jensen didn’t get, at first, what Jared was saying about Tom being his family
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Yep. This is the saddest chapter for sure. The promise was something Jensen shouldn't have asked. Because a part of him knew that Jared would say yes. It's why he shouldn't have asked, but it's also why he asked. Kissing Jared was equally wrong. Jensen has a lot to atone for in this story. There is timestamp possibility and if I do revisit those are the things that would be addressed.
The chocolate milk thing was awesome! I love that Sandy told Jared only to offer beer or soda. People always do think I'm odd when I offer chocolate milk :)
And this... “I broke the heart of the first boy I ever kissed,” Jensen says softly. He turns slowly and they are facing each other again.
Thanks. I reread this so I could reply knowing what the heck I wrote. I'm surprised now that folks weren't angrier with Jensen because he was a jerk to Jared. I have sympathy, of course, because he was so screwed up and was battling himself. And, of course, he eventually realizes what's right.
Ohmigod, my daughter has Aspergers, she's 6 so, we're not sure how much it affects her yet fully. Your version of Jared is heartbreakingly beautiful to me. I've been engrossed in this fic from the beginning and can't stop, but when Jared says "Do you love him like I love you". I just couldn't anymore....this fic is so beautiful and I like that you did your research. I'm off to read more, I just want to let you know that I've laughed, cried, and sympathized already. I truly love your writing. <3
Thank you. Comments like yours are so touching to me. I tried so hard to make Jared so much more than a label. If my research showed me anything it was that people can't be labeled. We are much too individual for that. And all the flavors are just beautiful.
You also pointed out my personal lines in the story. The exchange that culminates in Jared's confession of love for Jensen. I think Jared's honesty can be misunderstood as simplicity. But it never was that. It was his way of being seen, being understood, being heard. It was also his way of seeing. And he had to trust that honesty was returned even though he knew that wasn't always happening. Even with those he loved.
If you can, I hope you return and let me know if you enjoyed the story's conclusion.
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breaking my heart here, hon. :(
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And this... “I broke the heart of the first boy I ever kissed,” Jensen says softly. He turns slowly and they are facing each other again.
“So it’s a pattern, then?” PERFECT!
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You also pointed out my personal lines in the story. The exchange that culminates in Jared's confession of love for Jensen. I think Jared's honesty can be misunderstood as simplicity. But it never was that. It was his way of being seen, being understood, being heard. It was also his way of seeing. And he had to trust that honesty was returned even though he knew that wasn't always happening. Even with those he loved.
If you can, I hope you return and let me know if you enjoyed the story's conclusion.
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