Thinking
Hello everyone,
I thought that I would write in here and let you all know what is going on in my crazy life. LOL Well today was like I said a crazy day, we went outside to do vehicle stops and Kyle signed his summons "Call me", then he lost a condom out of his wallet, and Mr vires found it, it was so funny. He recorded Justin,me,and Kyle doing our vehicle stop, guess that he will get the rest of them tommarow. :) Well the lady from MECC came to out school today to talk about financial aid *Growls*, man if I knew that I can do something good with my life without college I would so not go lol. It is so crazy all this stuff that we have to feel out, then my dad has to go back and sign some papers in January 26. Great right? LOL Zack didnt even go down there, WOW can you believe it? He is really going to the army and there is nothing that I can do about it, he is in there for good. I hated lying to him, but I did. I told him that I was ok with him going and that it was good, and he would come home safe. Well you know what if he dosent? I mean I have grown to care for him so much and I really dont want to loose him, but hey what can I do. Nothing, I have to sit back and tell him I am ok with it, or I will push him away, or he will regret not going. *Crys* Well I am still trying to convince him that he will have fun at prom this year, I mean I know he didnt have a good time last year, but that was because him and Melissa fought the whole night. And I for one dont think that we will be fighting. I really want him to go, and with Brads help I" think that we can convince him that he would have a good time. I told him that if he wasnt haveing a good time that we could leave, and he said if I drive all the way over there I am going to stay. Well I want him to go and I want him to stay. *Prays* I cant believe how fast I feel for him, I believe that a part of me has always cared for him, and I guess that I always will. Well today in Dram we are writting a skit it is going to be great, I am detective, Mouse is a Chineese cook that is a murderer, Michelle is a victim, Meggan is a victim, and Ashley Stallard well she was a victim but now she dosent die. Anyway it is going to be great I cant wait. Shew is it so bad of me to have fallen for Zack the way that I did? I mean now I dont think about Jr anymore, today we went in his class, and I could actualy breath, and laugh. I didnt care that he was setting there, all I could think about was "Man I hope Zack goes to prom"LOL. I really like him alot. Thanks Apple for saying Jr looked like shit now lol, but hey he isnt my problem anymore, I kept him groomed so to speak when I had him. LOL. He dont look that bad I dont guess, but who cares, I have a great guy, that is one of my best friends. I really want to be with him alot. Can you blame me though? I just think that if he knew that I would be here no matter what when he came home from the army, maybe he would feel differently about getting a girlfriend. I ant like most girls I wont cheat, and I would be here when he came home. He is just someone that I could see myself having a future with, he really is a great guy. Well I guess that is enough about me rambling on. LOL. Well I want to say thanks to Brad he has helped me out alot, and hopefuly I helped him. Thanks. Hey to the rest of my peeps I love you all.
TTFN~
Sandy Mae~!~
I thought that I would write in here and let you all know what is going on in my crazy life. LOL Well today was like I said a crazy day, we went outside to do vehicle stops and Kyle signed his summons "Call me", then he lost a condom out of his wallet, and Mr vires found it, it was so funny. He recorded Justin,me,and Kyle doing our vehicle stop, guess that he will get the rest of them tommarow. :) Well the lady from MECC came to out school today to talk about financial aid *Growls*, man if I knew that I can do something good with my life without college I would so not go lol. It is so crazy all this stuff that we have to feel out, then my dad has to go back and sign some papers in January 26. Great right? LOL Zack didnt even go down there, WOW can you believe it? He is really going to the army and there is nothing that I can do about it, he is in there for good. I hated lying to him, but I did. I told him that I was ok with him going and that it was good, and he would come home safe. Well you know what if he dosent? I mean I have grown to care for him so much and I really dont want to loose him, but hey what can I do. Nothing, I have to sit back and tell him I am ok with it, or I will push him away, or he will regret not going. *Crys* Well I am still trying to convince him that he will have fun at prom this year, I mean I know he didnt have a good time last year, but that was because him and Melissa fought the whole night. And I for one dont think that we will be fighting. I really want him to go, and with Brads help I" think that we can convince him that he would have a good time. I told him that if he wasnt haveing a good time that we could leave, and he said if I drive all the way over there I am going to stay. Well I want him to go and I want him to stay. *Prays* I cant believe how fast I feel for him, I believe that a part of me has always cared for him, and I guess that I always will. Well today in Dram we are writting a skit it is going to be great, I am detective, Mouse is a Chineese cook that is a murderer, Michelle is a victim, Meggan is a victim, and Ashley Stallard well she was a victim but now she dosent die. Anyway it is going to be great I cant wait. Shew is it so bad of me to have fallen for Zack the way that I did? I mean now I dont think about Jr anymore, today we went in his class, and I could actualy breath, and laugh. I didnt care that he was setting there, all I could think about was "Man I hope Zack goes to prom"LOL. I really like him alot. Thanks Apple for saying Jr looked like shit now lol, but hey he isnt my problem anymore, I kept him groomed so to speak when I had him. LOL. He dont look that bad I dont guess, but who cares, I have a great guy, that is one of my best friends. I really want to be with him alot. Can you blame me though? I just think that if he knew that I would be here no matter what when he came home from the army, maybe he would feel differently about getting a girlfriend. I ant like most girls I wont cheat, and I would be here when he came home. He is just someone that I could see myself having a future with, he really is a great guy. Well I guess that is enough about me rambling on. LOL. Well I want to say thanks to Brad he has helped me out alot, and hopefuly I helped him. Thanks. Hey to the rest of my peeps I love you all.
TTFN~
Sandy Mae~!~