there is a first time for everything

[sandrunsout]

i don't know how to help this time. this has never happened to me before. i'm always the one that knows what to do. im scared. how do you help when you don't know what's wrong and you can't find out with the questions you ask? this is hard.

did i do something wrong? did i not do something? i can't help but think this has something to do with me. not because i'm conceaded and what not...but because i have this feeling.

when you get tired of something what do you do with it? you don't keep it around. maybe i'm just an old boaring apple.

when you are scared of something what do you do? you don't run towards it. maybe i'm a monster.

when you fall into the same routeen what do you do to get out of it? you don't keep all the elements. maybe i'm jsut in the way.

i don't know how to help this time. this has never happened to me before. how do you help when you dont' know what's wrong and you can't find out with the questions you ask? this is hard.

what do you do when you are scared to hold on, but you don't wat to let go?

what do you do when you know that for the first time in your life you feel like you are right, but the world is telling you that you are wrong?

what do you do when you want to change the world for someone but you don't even know how to change yourself?

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