don't do this
it seems like you are doing exaclty what i would do if i wasn't trying so damn hard to change. that is why i am so scared. i know the signs. i know the looks. i know the porcess. i went threw all of it with #2. this time how ever i know what i did to him, and it sucks. good thing i am trying to change. maybe you should too. maybe you should stop, turn around and look one more time at what you would be leaving behind.