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every time i go to a friend's journal. and i see comments from you know who, with her beautiful picture in her icon, it hurts. it kills me to look at her and it frustrates me to see her leaving comments in my friends journals. so i have decided to save myself the pain by not reading anyone else's comments, therefore, i will not be leaving anyone comments. i still love you all. but livejournal just makes me upset now. she makes me upset now. even though im really making myself upset. to everyone who wants me to move on: its very difficult. and believe me. im trying. no one else knows how i feel towards her, so none of you would really understand why i cant "simply" move on. i god damn wish i could forget her that easily. also keep in mind that i see her in school almost every fucking day. and many recurring things remind me of her. you make me more upset by telling me to move on. im doing the best i can right now. im keeping myself busy. and i want to find a new girl. but she wont leave my thoughts even while im occupied. and another girl won't appear when i want her to. if anything, i just need some sort of support. not shooting down my feelings by telling me to move on. sarah - you made me feel alot better that night at bagel bin. it really seemed like you cared for my feelings and i liked that. lets do it again sometime :] sorry for how i acted last night on aim.