im sad
for a couple reasons.....Lydia is going back to Chicago this weekend and i just said goodbye to her cause i work so much the next couple days that i wont get to see her before she leaves....im going to miss her....she was a great sourse of strength and sanity this summer....my wife has that effect on me...our 15 kids miss her too....she has our favorite with her, his name is "Bob dole like the orange juice but not from Concentrate"....LOL.....we will keep in touch but its never the same as having her here........
im also sad i really miss Chris....i can see things in me and read me better than anyone ever has....he calls me on my bullshit and makes it so comfortable for me to be completely honest with him.....he also makes me laugh, a lot, when i was there(with the exception of the mini cry fest one night) i was always smiling and laughing....it was amazing....i feel comfortable with him in ever sense of the word....which you think would have been harder to attain concidering we knew each other for like a week and had hung out together like 10 hours total prior to my visit to stay at his house for 3 days...i mean usually theres the awkward period of being in a new place and around new people and not knowing what to do and i never had that....from the minute i walked through the door he made me feel welcome and at home with him in his house....i know a few of you know who im talking about and i may sound rediculous and you may be thinking ive lost my mind and i would have to agree 100%.....ive lost it and am not willing to give up until i find it and get it back....read into that what you will....i have never met anyone like him, hes such a sweetheart....so curtious and kind, funny and simple, hes a total gentleman(opening doors and making dinner/breakfast and always making sure i had what i needed) i didnt think men like him existed before he came along.....and, now dont take this the wrong way, but sometimes i wish i had never met him...because if i had never met him i wouldnt know he existed, i wouldnt miss his smile and kind words, i wouldnt know someone could make me so happy so easily....but at the same time im so glad that i got to meet him, that he came into my life and reminded what was out there, he woke up a part of me that had been asleep for quite a while....he is a great friend and has already given me great advise and taught me valuable lessons in the short time we have been friends....he is so respectful of me and what i want and so careful with my feelings im still kinda in awe that he exists and that i know him......
ok enough ramblings from the crazy girl...but reflecting just now brought a smile to my face so im a little cheered up.....hes teaching me about different kinds of music....like metal and indie groups that ive never heard of....im learning a lot about him and expanding my music selection at the same time...plus im just thrilled that someone is taking the time to teach me something that they care so much about....i could listen for hours to someone talking about something that they are passionate about....anyways
time to get ready for work so ill write more laters
k bye
crystal
im also sad i really miss Chris....i can see things in me and read me better than anyone ever has....he calls me on my bullshit and makes it so comfortable for me to be completely honest with him.....he also makes me laugh, a lot, when i was there(with the exception of the mini cry fest one night) i was always smiling and laughing....it was amazing....i feel comfortable with him in ever sense of the word....which you think would have been harder to attain concidering we knew each other for like a week and had hung out together like 10 hours total prior to my visit to stay at his house for 3 days...i mean usually theres the awkward period of being in a new place and around new people and not knowing what to do and i never had that....from the minute i walked through the door he made me feel welcome and at home with him in his house....i know a few of you know who im talking about and i may sound rediculous and you may be thinking ive lost my mind and i would have to agree 100%.....ive lost it and am not willing to give up until i find it and get it back....read into that what you will....i have never met anyone like him, hes such a sweetheart....so curtious and kind, funny and simple, hes a total gentleman(opening doors and making dinner/breakfast and always making sure i had what i needed) i didnt think men like him existed before he came along.....and, now dont take this the wrong way, but sometimes i wish i had never met him...because if i had never met him i wouldnt know he existed, i wouldnt miss his smile and kind words, i wouldnt know someone could make me so happy so easily....but at the same time im so glad that i got to meet him, that he came into my life and reminded what was out there, he woke up a part of me that had been asleep for quite a while....he is a great friend and has already given me great advise and taught me valuable lessons in the short time we have been friends....he is so respectful of me and what i want and so careful with my feelings im still kinda in awe that he exists and that i know him......
ok enough ramblings from the crazy girl...but reflecting just now brought a smile to my face so im a little cheered up.....hes teaching me about different kinds of music....like metal and indie groups that ive never heard of....im learning a lot about him and expanding my music selection at the same time...plus im just thrilled that someone is taking the time to teach me something that they care so much about....i could listen for hours to someone talking about something that they are passionate about....anyways
time to get ready for work so ill write more laters
k bye
crystal