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so im a year older now. looking back on this year a lot has changed. my self esteem went out the fucking window. i now let everyone walk all over me. im now a drunk.
i miss my old life. i miss sydney i miss dan, i miss kris and nick. i miss myself. ive changed so much and im not sure if its good or bad.
lindy.... what can i say about her. shes Beautiful smart funny and i like to be around her. im a sucker. if i get the slightest bit of attention from a Pretty girl i got all crazy nuts. amy and tyler say she likes be but im really not so sure, sometimes i see it and sometimes i dont..... well most of the time i dont. bur right now i think her life is to fucked up for me or anyone for that matter. amy said she wanted to meet someone cool and fun to be with, she use to call me all the time but once she meat me face to face she dosnt call like half as much so it kind of makes me feel like im not fun to be around or like a cool person.
then allison shes is one of the prettieist girls ive ever seen in my life. shes in a band as the singer. i think her band name is gynkst. she is like me the the T but she has boobs and i dont. and thats fucking cool. last saturday i kind of had a Bday party and she came and i dont really remember how it happend but i kind of woke up with her. i know we didnt have sex but i think we made out for a little bit, i thought my friend eric was going to be pissed at me but he really wasnt that mad... its kind of funny i can just sit and talk to her for hours about nothing... shes really sweet to everyone.. i talked to her from 1am to 3am then she went to bed caz she had to work in the morning. but it was fun.
i miss my old life. i miss sydney i miss dan, i miss kris and nick. i miss myself. ive changed so much and im not sure if its good or bad.
lindy.... what can i say about her. shes Beautiful smart funny and i like to be around her. im a sucker. if i get the slightest bit of attention from a Pretty girl i got all crazy nuts. amy and tyler say she likes be but im really not so sure, sometimes i see it and sometimes i dont..... well most of the time i dont. bur right now i think her life is to fucked up for me or anyone for that matter. amy said she wanted to meet someone cool and fun to be with, she use to call me all the time but once she meat me face to face she dosnt call like half as much so it kind of makes me feel like im not fun to be around or like a cool person.
then allison shes is one of the prettieist girls ive ever seen in my life. shes in a band as the singer. i think her band name is gynkst. she is like me the the T but she has boobs and i dont. and thats fucking cool. last saturday i kind of had a Bday party and she came and i dont really remember how it happend but i kind of woke up with her. i know we didnt have sex but i think we made out for a little bit, i thought my friend eric was going to be pissed at me but he really wasnt that mad... its kind of funny i can just sit and talk to her for hours about nothing... shes really sweet to everyone.. i talked to her from 1am to 3am then she went to bed caz she had to work in the morning. but it was fun.