strike that, reverse it
so, about my last entry...it has been solved, so, i'm sorry for osunding like an asshole whiny douchebag.
sitting in english today, i was hoping to god i didn't get called on to answer a question about nabakov, mainly cause i hadn't read it. and as i sat there, i wondered if it really mattered that i got good grades in highschool or not. yeah, sure, i'll get good grades, then go on to a college, hopefully a good one, then get a job, get married, have kids, watch them grow up, retire, and die eventually.
Now, that was a very bried summary of life, leaving out quite a fair amount of human experiences. but seriously, will getting a good grade now cause me to be happy 50 years from now? probably not, so why does everybody worry so much?
and then in orchestra on wednesday, joey was talking about how by an in depth definition, he is a pessimist(someone who doesn't trust people, is fairly charismatic, and has the ability to manipulate people), and i realized i follow the same description. then he said during some sort of reading, he questioned his existance, and i sat in bed last night, questioning what the hell i was here for, why i act the way i do, who put me here, what or who put us here, and why my mind has the capability to think about this stuff.
i mean, if in turn, god didn't want us to be able to question him, then he has the power to leave that out of our thought process, right? since the beginning of time, history has been written by the winners, and therefore not always been truthful. sure the outcoming result has always been, "we won because we're superior!" but they never mention the fact that it may have taken a lot to get where they had gone.
i'll probably start gazing again. up that is, at the sky and farther. it has been a long long while. a lot has happened since freshman year, and its sad to say that it went so fast, and its sadder to say that i wouldn't have changed anything that happened. sure i wish i had acted differently, but had i done that, i wouldn't be thinking the way i am right now. i love my life right now. i am happy wiht what i am, who i am, and who i am with. if any of those change, so be it, that's life, and i'll find another way. "somehow we'll make it, cause that's what we do." -rhcp, make you feel better.
i thought about drugs, and alcohol, and the "proper" use of them, and the illegal use of others. i thought, if it weren't for drugs, would music have come this far? or would we still be sitting in orchestra halls and auditoriums listening to big band music and jazz, instead of jumping, dancing, moshing and grinding to the music we have now? i hate to think about it, but drugs are necessary for life at this point in time in the world, and in fact, it is a primal nature to want to get high.
in a case of apes studied in the wild, these apes would look for plants containing hallucinagenic properties, and then have toruble walking. other apes would come close to tropical resorts and when people in these resorts left to go swimming, these apes would go running in and steal these peoples alcoholic drinks. in one account an ape took a sip of vodka, spit it up, then found rum and chugged it. some of these apes would ahve one drink and chill out under a tree while others would drink until they couldn't walk, or they fell out of trees. if you are a person that believes in evolution, then wouldn't we possess the same behavior?
"it's not a war on drugs, it's a war on freedom, remember that at all times."
so i encourage you to take the time to instead of going out and spending your adolescence completely in awe of another person, whether it be of the opposite sex or not, to work to better yourself in the short amount of time that you have alive on this planet. i'm not saying study your ass off so that you can make a huge difference in the world and possibly make it into an amazing college and then going on to cure cancer, although that would be great, i'm not saying you should become a study-whore. i'm saying go out and do something you want to do for fun, activity, leisure, or pleasure.
do what you can, where you are, with what you've got.
sitting in english today, i was hoping to god i didn't get called on to answer a question about nabakov, mainly cause i hadn't read it. and as i sat there, i wondered if it really mattered that i got good grades in highschool or not. yeah, sure, i'll get good grades, then go on to a college, hopefully a good one, then get a job, get married, have kids, watch them grow up, retire, and die eventually.
Now, that was a very bried summary of life, leaving out quite a fair amount of human experiences. but seriously, will getting a good grade now cause me to be happy 50 years from now? probably not, so why does everybody worry so much?
and then in orchestra on wednesday, joey was talking about how by an in depth definition, he is a pessimist(someone who doesn't trust people, is fairly charismatic, and has the ability to manipulate people), and i realized i follow the same description. then he said during some sort of reading, he questioned his existance, and i sat in bed last night, questioning what the hell i was here for, why i act the way i do, who put me here, what or who put us here, and why my mind has the capability to think about this stuff.
i mean, if in turn, god didn't want us to be able to question him, then he has the power to leave that out of our thought process, right? since the beginning of time, history has been written by the winners, and therefore not always been truthful. sure the outcoming result has always been, "we won because we're superior!" but they never mention the fact that it may have taken a lot to get where they had gone.
i'll probably start gazing again. up that is, at the sky and farther. it has been a long long while. a lot has happened since freshman year, and its sad to say that it went so fast, and its sadder to say that i wouldn't have changed anything that happened. sure i wish i had acted differently, but had i done that, i wouldn't be thinking the way i am right now. i love my life right now. i am happy wiht what i am, who i am, and who i am with. if any of those change, so be it, that's life, and i'll find another way. "somehow we'll make it, cause that's what we do." -rhcp, make you feel better.
i thought about drugs, and alcohol, and the "proper" use of them, and the illegal use of others. i thought, if it weren't for drugs, would music have come this far? or would we still be sitting in orchestra halls and auditoriums listening to big band music and jazz, instead of jumping, dancing, moshing and grinding to the music we have now? i hate to think about it, but drugs are necessary for life at this point in time in the world, and in fact, it is a primal nature to want to get high.
in a case of apes studied in the wild, these apes would look for plants containing hallucinagenic properties, and then have toruble walking. other apes would come close to tropical resorts and when people in these resorts left to go swimming, these apes would go running in and steal these peoples alcoholic drinks. in one account an ape took a sip of vodka, spit it up, then found rum and chugged it. some of these apes would ahve one drink and chill out under a tree while others would drink until they couldn't walk, or they fell out of trees. if you are a person that believes in evolution, then wouldn't we possess the same behavior?
"it's not a war on drugs, it's a war on freedom, remember that at all times."
so i encourage you to take the time to instead of going out and spending your adolescence completely in awe of another person, whether it be of the opposite sex or not, to work to better yourself in the short amount of time that you have alive on this planet. i'm not saying study your ass off so that you can make a huge difference in the world and possibly make it into an amazing college and then going on to cure cancer, although that would be great, i'm not saying you should become a study-whore. i'm saying go out and do something you want to do for fun, activity, leisure, or pleasure.
do what you can, where you are, with what you've got.