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I feel like stoppind. Today was a bad day but I was still in my optimistic mood, as usual, and then all of a sudden i realize that everything I did today was totally and completely stupid. I jumped down Nicole's throat about the whole D thing before I ever heard her side of the story. I tried to make it up to her by being nice and ignoring it and I only made it worse. She won't get mad at me but I know she wants to. I tried to make her yell at me but she wouldn't and now I feel worse because I jumped down her throat but she's being calm and not jumping down mine. Fair enough.
Then I'm talking to Alex and he needs my help, he's feeling sad and lonely and all I do is make some stupid assumption about his feelings when I couldn't possibly know that was the truth and then I make him question himself because of what I said! I said the meanest thing and didn't think twice! I didn't know it was so mean until i sent it and I regretted it immediatly, and yah know what happened? He wouldn't get mad. He refuses to yell at me, and he says hes not mad, but he should be, I deserve it.
I feel like stoppind.