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I am sitting here finally for a moment to let out a big breath and vent(and how funny that I just caught myself letting out that big breath). It has been so long since I have been stressed out. I am used to being busy with work and school. A few weeks ago I had a Friday and Saturday off of work and really had no clue what to do with myself. You would think that not barely a moment to relax or take time out for yourself would make an individual stress out. I became accoustomed to all of this and made it ok in my life. Yesterday when I came into work I was informed that my hours will be cut for the next 5 weeks. Now I am stressed to the point that each time this crosses my mind my heart pounds so hard I am afraid it may leap out of my chest. I hope this will only last this 5 weeks. I will be missing out on alot of money that I already had budgeted into my month. I depend on about 75% of what I bring in. Anyway, all I heard from Shaun is how badly they are hurting. Not in exact words but I think I made it pretty clear how badly this will hurt me. I am not only hurt because I will have to somehow rebudget but never once was given any kind of apology. They know my situation so I am so confused to the fact that they are not concerned that this is hurting me as well if not more. I feel that my hours cut is unnecessary. The owners of the store are putting an ice cream store in the back, had tee-shirts made, and business cards printed(which when I was asked if I wanted some for myself I said no thank you and to use the money for something else). All of the above I feel were unnecessary expenses for the business and may have cut my hours but not to the extent.
On a happier note, I checked my mail today and there was a greeting card for me in an unrecognizable handwriting with no return address. I opened it up and it was a Mother's Day card from my dogs Izzabel and Sam. Only my mom! Gosh I love that woman. It is such a silly thing to do but it really brightened my day for the moment.
I want a happy thought or something to look forward to so badly. I really hate to be in the sour mood that I am in. I just have to sit back and continue to tell myself that things could be a heck of alot worse. There are others out there hurting alot more than I am. I hate to be selfless but for once I am more concerned for myself. Normally I would feel guilty for these feelings but for once I am going to just indulge in my own problems.
On a happier note, I checked my mail today and there was a greeting card for me in an unrecognizable handwriting with no return address. I opened it up and it was a Mother's Day card from my dogs Izzabel and Sam. Only my mom! Gosh I love that woman. It is such a silly thing to do but it really brightened my day for the moment.
I want a happy thought or something to look forward to so badly. I really hate to be in the sour mood that I am in. I just have to sit back and continue to tell myself that things could be a heck of alot worse. There are others out there hurting alot more than I am. I hate to be selfless but for once I am more concerned for myself. Normally I would feel guilty for these feelings but for once I am going to just indulge in my own problems.