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I have a moment where I just want to scream....or can I say really I just want to go into a room and cry. Sometimes I think I just may be over sensitve...but goodness it just feels so good to let it all out and not just cry but scream. I am angry right now and I really hate that feeling. Once again as always I am letting my job control my life. It shouldn't be that way but it is so hard when my bosses have made it my life. I am really starting to bump heads with one of my bosses. It has come to the point that I am really unhappy and want to get out. I think he feels the same way and because of his big head and his so called thinking that he would come into this business and make loot and his employees will bow down to him has been a total prick to me. He picks on me about every little thing. Yet I am so confused...I am doing my job entirely right while he is sitting on his butt doing nothing. I have the feeling that these are the types of people that expect their butts kissed but I am sorry but I will not kiss any. I will not do anymore for the little amount that I am making. I knew in the beginning that things wouldn't work. When the store was sold I was the one to train him. He was not willing to work with me at all. I had an inkling from that time that he was the type to just think that this was a business that he thought he could just sit back a collect the dough. I have worked for many small businesses and I think I have a good idea on how to run them. To be a business owner...a new one yet a first there has to be 100% mind set and life set on that business. I am going to stop right here and say one of these owners have no clue about anything.
Ok so I am totally ranting but I am extremely worn out. I was told by the previous person I have been speaking about that my school work is not allowed at work unless everything is taken care of ...but wait it is! Just another thing for him to pick at me about. I am just totally stressed about anything you can imagine right now. I am so tired. I need some extra time for school but my bosses seem unwilling because the sooner I finish the sooner they are screwed. When i first said what I was doing they freaked it was flattering at first but not so much anymore. When will I ever think of me first and not feel bad about others. I am just really tired of being taken advantage of. Maybe I am wrong but I will not feel as if I am your slave. I know there will always be someone above you but I will not bow down to you but will work with you.
Ok so I am totally ranting but I am extremely worn out. I was told by the previous person I have been speaking about that my school work is not allowed at work unless everything is taken care of ...but wait it is! Just another thing for him to pick at me about. I am just totally stressed about anything you can imagine right now. I am so tired. I need some extra time for school but my bosses seem unwilling because the sooner I finish the sooner they are screwed. When i first said what I was doing they freaked it was flattering at first but not so much anymore. When will I ever think of me first and not feel bad about others. I am just really tired of being taken advantage of. Maybe I am wrong but I will not feel as if I am your slave. I know there will always be someone above you but I will not bow down to you but will work with you.