I just don't udnerstand
I seriously do not understand him at all, he acts like wants me around, then he doesn't. I dunno. it depends on how you look at it. He would walk and talk with me, but then I dunno, things are not the same or as cute as they used to be, none warm feelings of cute memories anymore. its just, hi, you are here thats pretty cool. and I guess according to sarah he winks at her now? so that really fucks me over, shes not interested in him, shes got chad, but still if that was true, what now? Me and him drifted apart. That I do not want, at all. oh well, shit happens right? I look too much on the negative side. I dunno? I really don't. I never get a good chance with any guy. He said tonight before I left that he was going to call me last night, but he then decided that it was too late 11pm. Im going to force my parents to get me a cell phone tommorrow, im sick of this nonsense, it needs to stop. I dunno im continously going crazy. I just want him, and that to be final for now.