doldrums

[samiraalthores]

I'm in the doldrums where I don't want to do anything but lay in bed. No gym. No library. No hiking. I wish there was something on television that I liked so I could zone out. I stopped drinking last week because the stress level got so high that I wanted to drink until I passed out. I didn't, but the desire scared me. My manuscript is submitted and the final work assigned for the month. My house is a mess as a garage sale aftermath. My left hand is weird and my fingers alternate between cramping and numbness. I'm wearing a carpal tunnel wrist brace to provide some relief. I travel on Sunday for a week and the arrangements are made. Hurricane Ike appears headed towards Texas. I left my laundry out on the clothesline and it rained today. It's still raining. I forgot to get Tigger the Cat her special diet canned food so she's feasting on a can of tuna. The tuna is actually cheaper than the catfood. I haven't paid my bills yet this month. I ate a banana and made some chai tea. I found an old book that I am re-reading in bed.

I suppose it's simply the low on the backside of the high I was riding for the last couple of weeks. I'll drift off to sleep and hopefully tomorrow will be more directed.

I am thankful for:
modern medicine
a place of my own
herbal tea
fresh fruit from around the world
dark chocolate
flex-time at work
harmonious mind-body-spirit
instant coffee