private entry #5.
I guess you could say I know what's going on with Santana and Brittany.
The only reason I say *guess* is because I mean...I know that Santana's in love with her. I've known that Santana's been in love with her for a really, really long time. The *I guess* comes in with the whole, if this is true then why did she even waste all this time with me bit. The *I guess* comes in with the whole, if I truly knew, then why did I let myself get taken for a ride like this?
But it's not even like that, really. I mean, of course I care that yet another one of my relationships is falling apart but Santana has slowly become one of my best friends the easiest people I've ever been able to talk to and I want her to be happy. Obviously, I can't let the others know. It's why I said what I did to Artie after San and Britt sang with Holiday. I meant what I said; I wish I were that close to anyone, really. But I said it more so it would seem like I didn't just see what had just happened. So it would seem like I hadn't just seen my girlfriend proclaim this love for her best friend. I need to stay this naive caricature that everyone expects.
It's easier that way.
The only reason I say *guess* is because I mean...I know that Santana's in love with her. I've known that Santana's been in love with her for a really, really long time. The *I guess* comes in with the whole, if this is true then why did she even waste all this time with me bit. The *I guess* comes in with the whole, if I truly knew, then why did I let myself get taken for a ride like this?
But it's not even like that, really. I mean, of course I care that yet another one of my relationships is falling apart but Santana has slowly become one of my best friends the easiest people I've ever been able to talk to and I want her to be happy. Obviously, I can't let the others know. It's why I said what I did to Artie after San and Britt sang with Holiday. I meant what I said; I wish I were that close to anyone, really. But I said it more so it would seem like I didn't just see what had just happened. So it would seem like I hadn't just seen my girlfriend proclaim this love for her best friend. I need to stay this naive caricature that everyone expects.
It's easier that way.