My head is spinning
Dustin just asked me how I think our relationship is going on a scale of 1-10. I said 7. He was sad or disappointed. He apparently was expecting an 8. I was honest. Sometimes I just feel so tied down. Like my life has no more choices. I am no longer a free spirit. It hurts me. I think i need space. I know I'll never get it. I probably won't even ask for it. Maybe it's just cuz I'm on the bank. But it's this feeling deep inside of me that eats away at me. Trapped. But he is such an amazing guy. Why am I not just happy. Maybe it's because I know we are standing in God's way of His best for both of us.