search for the swan...
I know I've said this maybe a thousand times already, but I seriously didn't think it was possible to go through this many emotions, over and over, up and down. Way not prepared for this. AHHHHHH, ha.
Seeing Mom and Dad was so good, I cannot remember being that giddy. It's a damn good thing my mom and I are that close, because if she wasn't fond of me I really think Dad would have killed me. My sarcasm had been bottled up and restrained for far too long, thank GOD Mom came to rescue it!! Seriously though, having them here was so good, I was able to get out of Limerick and see the country that I had actually pictured. An amazing release, and lots of thought clearing. Who knew it would be so cleansing? Now I am in a (somewhat) normal state, with actual school and classes and a bit of a routine. I'm not going to lie, I'm starting to feel a little worried about going back home... "life" here is beginning to take over, and it's not that I'm forgetting home (because I know who I am and ultimately where I belong), but I just don't want this to end. Maybe I don't necessarily want to be in Eau Claire forever. Maybe I don't want to stay in Wisconsin and teach. Maybe what I really need is some more time here... ha, and some more money to stay!! Either way, I'm just letting go and enjoying stuff here, and as always (trying) not to worry about home... though you know I don't ever really stop....
Seeing Mom and Dad was so good, I cannot remember being that giddy. It's a damn good thing my mom and I are that close, because if she wasn't fond of me I really think Dad would have killed me. My sarcasm had been bottled up and restrained for far too long, thank GOD Mom came to rescue it!! Seriously though, having them here was so good, I was able to get out of Limerick and see the country that I had actually pictured. An amazing release, and lots of thought clearing. Who knew it would be so cleansing? Now I am in a (somewhat) normal state, with actual school and classes and a bit of a routine. I'm not going to lie, I'm starting to feel a little worried about going back home... "life" here is beginning to take over, and it's not that I'm forgetting home (because I know who I am and ultimately where I belong), but I just don't want this to end. Maybe I don't necessarily want to be in Eau Claire forever. Maybe I don't want to stay in Wisconsin and teach. Maybe what I really need is some more time here... ha, and some more money to stay!! Either way, I'm just letting go and enjoying stuff here, and as always (trying) not to worry about home... though you know I don't ever really stop....